zzz

2008-10-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

i just realised the green monster on the left's gone. sth seemed strange but cldnt put a finger to it! anyway, i think this blogging thing is getting a bit off. too old for it alr! so, just gonna let it be as it is. nice memories so theres no need to close it down i guess. but no more reg updates. unless sth really big happens like ufo sighting or i strike toto.

2008-09-29T01:34:00.004+08:00

I AM DEAF!
omgness that was the best weekend ever. spectacularly superb event. seriously la, not cos im biased! qualifying was good. got to see fisicella up close when he passed our point after he crashed! boudary rider (biker) gave him a lift back to pits. and raceday! damm exhilarating la tens of thousands of happy ppl storming into circuit park. and its really cool cos there're like multiple stages of bands playin nice muzik thruout the weekend. just like glastonbury music fest! 10x singfest.

bright lights!

drivers pre-race parade. all 20 drivers driven arnd track prior to race. got to go on the track super close to them! kimi too cool. coulthard's square face looked squarer. hansum button. surreal. starstruck. uh oh idol worshipper. prolly pissed off the crowd behind cos we formed extended line on the track snapping our cameras away! here's raikonnen. ok crap handphone camera. ARGH i cant believe i didnt bring a camera along.

point 10 chicane. yea the 'offensive' one where so many drivers flew. seriously we got a shock when we saw it. its lined with bumps resembling a series of canned drinks. so they lowered it down, but still stick out like sore thumbs.

kerb on point 14.5, bottom red one got ran over so many times it moved out of place. david coulthard gave us some skipped heartbeats! hugged the walls at our area a few times after skidding around.

view from our point! johnnie walked. rubbish car in background as it turns right towards us.

race was bloddy exciting. had to keep updating my driver position form. and then race control came on and announced 'safety car's out!' piquet's crash. anyway ferrari had CRAP day and normally i'd be devastated but todays just diff. heck, i even waved back to hamilton on the victory lap! so cheeky, swerved so near to us and smiled his teeth off. friendly crazy chap.

BRILLIANT! oh and the FIA folks were damn impressed with everyone. especially us communications folk around the circuit! of cos la. me and my partner can recognise each car in roughly 3s. longer than that and u're screwed if they crash and u need to report back to race control sheepishly tt u've no idea who's the driver! good stress.

to top it off, THE WAILERS performed at the padang after the race! one of my fav bands i never in my life thought i could see perform. they were bob marley's band! sheer musikal geniuses/legends! played three lil birds, no woman no cry, stir it up and lots of other marley familiars. encored with redemption song and get up, stand up! what beats reggae under the stars at the padang huh. crowd went wild, so i prob didnt look out of place! im pleased as a kid(who really loves candy) in a candy store(with really nice candy). next year once again!

2008-09-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

f1 in less than a week! i'll be at trackside right smack in the action! thats the nearest one cld possibly get to the cars. even the spectator grandstands are not as close cos they're elevated platforms. i do hope someone crashes at my area to spice things up. hopefully hamilton! cant wait.

i love this discovery channel ad. and this is rare cos a nice advertisement is oxymoronic in sg tv. sucha happy song! a must see.

"It never gets old huh?"
"Nope."
"It kinda make you wanna..break into song?"
"Yep."

I love the mountains
I love the clear blue skies
I love big bridges
I love when great whites fly
I love the whole world
And all its sights and sounds
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
I love the ocean
I love real dirty things
I love to go fast
I love egyptian kings
I love the whole world
and all its craziness
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
I love tornadoes
I love Arachnids
I love hot magma
I love the giant squids
I love the whole world
Its such a brilliant place
Boom De Yada (X10)

2008-09-08T00:22:00.005+08:00

ok while weekdays are horrid, at least weekends are pure unadulterated fun! lydia's back, which of cos thrills us as always! special once-a-year treats. buncha us caught $ no enough last week, which was surprisingly hilarious! best jackneo film ever in my opinion. laughed till struggled for breath at times. shitass lame, in a good way. good times we've spent catching up, despite everyone's busyness. and dinnner at the cho's house. such warm fuzziness.

at walas. i guest-sang with the unXpected! all 6 words of it! the perils of sitting in front of stage sheesh. so there i was happily enjoying myself when shirlyn goes 'take my hand', and shoves the mike in my face for me to go 'we're off to nevernever land!' metallica's 'enter sandman'. walao imagine the maluness if it was some song i didnt know. and not bad, somebody cheered! that was a crazy night cos my friend beside me got hauled upstage by shirlyn, who forced him to sing four chords. but it was so bad that all of us cldnt bear to watch our poor friend kena laughed at by the whole joint. drummer said u sound like jap porn star! cos he sounded more like was moaning. for a gd ten mins at least! oh well at least he's left for brighton today.

-stolen frm lyd's blog. HAHA. we surprised her on her return. jumped out frm stairwell shout surprise. getting too young for ourselves.

2008-09-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

i hate tutorials. speaking up in class constitutes 10% of grades wth! bad for ppl like me. cos it means a) must actually do work prior to class b) speak up. why ive never really ans qns in sch cos ive never really been the type to do hw. math hw was done once a week in jc, only cos i force my tutor to do my hw with me haha. brilliantly, the philosophy dept came up with blogging system. so ppl can take their time to construct clever things to say in the comforts of their home, and then post comments on the blog. which, also counts for 10% of grades. but id rather much blog abt rubbish then blog about some philo theory or anon-ly cursing the crap outta mr socrates, TIME magazine's number one most annoying man ever. the only thing i got outta today's guest lecturer-the study of philo either screws up the rest of your life and thinking in general, or u end up getting entertained for your remaining years on earth. seriously, the dude was going on abt bats and consciousness for a gd forty mins or so. male bat thinks: ooh, female bat! prior to that he was discussing about a rock. when he got to imagine yourself as a shoe, ppl got fed up and started streaming outta lt haha! but as much as it infuriates, philo's really quite interesting a subject. esp if u're a greekophile.

oh baking day for youths in church next sat! random folks are welcome just tell me. or if you'd so prefer, mooncake making session by the international students ministry. which essentially consists of exchange students in nus. coolio.

colourful life thus far in sch. yet struggling to appreciate being in it, bombarded by concepts, concept of having to work(!), nonsensical teachings, love of plagiarism, the list goes on. mebbe i'll get one of those ubiquitous nussu tshirts to get in the mood of things. hmm.

2008-08-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

its only the first week and i find myself with a huge backlog of readings yet to be done. i tried some philo. wondered abt an hr later how come i ended up so snug on my bed. tried again. drove me nuts, gave up! amazing how english can be twisted to seem like such an incomprehensible mix of blabberish. resent feeling so stupid really. little wonder they killed off socrates! sianzz sch starts proper next week with tutorials. though my 3-day week brings some level of glee.

ah i was supposed to print stuff. why did i end up typing stuff..

ok go!

2008-08-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

great song, even better vid! synkronised dancing along on a treadmill. uber coolz. especially the bald man haha.

mad babies are always entertaining! i rofl-ed.

2008-08-09T19:33:00.002+08:00

wee o-week has ended! somehow i went for it after much reason and persuasion hah. im soo not the rahrah type and hate meeting new ppl cos its so scary! but one of this year's aim's not to be such a wuss and give-upper so decided to go in the end. and my og turned out overwhelmingly female..sth like 4 guys to < 10 girls. which is gd cos someone brought spf 130 or sth like that sunblock for beach day! wanted to pon everyday cos its starts so early. then one fella said dont see me so slack, never really cheer or super enthu, actually quite on, keep coming back most days haha.. vast improvement frm cj's orientation which i left for sajc to appeal out then never went back!

anyway im taking ridikulous mods this sem, what with the stupid bidding system and all. philosophy and biology intro. sheesh. who the hell bothers what plato thinks. oh well, anything but maths mods though. almost cost me my place in uni. of which i cant enter had i been born a year later!

ok time to make new friends. time also to replace old friends hurhur.. kidding. i know im a good friend hahaha.

2008-07-24T02:22:00.009+08:00

damn sian now that the bff and ah may have gone back. haiz. no more funny entertainment making ah may run around tennis court chasing balls. at least still got the scouts who come play ever so often though. and yet another friend stolen away by aust this month! bloody country. hrrumph.

on another note, im relieved! though i admittedly forgot abt this issue alr hahaha. received the 2nd warning letter though i think a third strike wld be unthinkable.

public service announcement: all guys must notify mindef if ever u leave the country for more than 24hrs. all the way till ur reservist cycle ends!

start of school dawns ever nearer, which is also quite zzz. no idea even now what to take. mebbe shld do what two-face does. ord loh!

2008-07-19T01:52:00.006+08:00

okaay this is a really christianish post, bear with me.

just came back frm a missions conference at suntec. initially feared it'd be a small thing where ppl wld get too interactive, over friendly but whoa total opposite. packed full like shinjuku station during peak hours. ok damn i miss tokyo. so the usual hillsongish worship session which rocked in many senses, but what i took home was the superb message by the speaker.

Genesis 47

gist of it was about submitting to God's plans. shared story of joseph, how he was chosen by God starting with his dream. the joseph and the amazing technicolour dreamcoat musical story! ok basically ppl know more abt that story of Joseph being a godly man, being morally upright despite being seduced by potiphar's wife etc. whats less known that despite a good start, joseph eventually sinned and unlike most godly men in the bible, had a bad ending to his story!

basically aft lotsa events, joseph became Pharoah's (egyptian king) right hand man. up till now joseph had been good servant of God. but became blinded by wordly views at this point of power he had. convinced the egyptians to give up all their possesions to pharoah, eventually having nth left. promised them to give back a certain percentage after redistribution among the ctry. (think Marxism) this was a time of famine thus joseph's plan, inherently good, was aimed to alleviate this prob.

however along the lines of great empires and the contemporary knowledge of what great empires entailed then, or how a kingdom's wealth was measured, was solely that of how rich its leaders were. in this case, the richer pharoah was, the greater egypt was! as joseph accumulated more land/treasures from his people to present to pharoah, he stumbled along the way. the more he got, the more he demanded frm the egyptians towards building up greater wealth of the kingdom. worse still, he enslaved them to pharoah by making them sell all their land to him in exchange for food, which they did so due to severity of famine by then.

and thus forgetting what his main purpose for doing so was-to help his people out of poverty. so what he did was to inadvertently lead to the generations of egyptians and ultimately (long story), israelites, becoming enslaved under the egyptian kingdom. which is of course one of the greatest disasters in the bible!

all this was related cos the pastor warned about blocking out God's plan for us. two choices-obey and submit to 'God's dream' purpose for us, or reject and follow instead what eventually turns out the opposite, 'satan's nightmare'. as in not satan's nightmare from the devil's viewpoint la cos obviously thats what satan desires! but a nightmare frm a godly perspective as the consequences of choosing the alternative path instead of God's intended path for us. abit confusing la the direct opposite or antonym. whatever. and the sermon not only applies solely to missions (evangelistic outreach) per se, but for God's purpose for our lives as a whole, and whether we choose to obey as He instructs.

i apologise if there're any factual errors in this post, pls tell me if there is. go read up and see if i said rubbish, cos twisting God's word's sacrilegious haha. i know few ppl're actually gonna read this. but i thought even if one does do so, that'd be great already. and of course also to encourage other christians out there in one way or another i hope, cos we all do get abit jaded every now and then (:

travelin' thru

2008-07-09T17:10:00.004+08:00

my favourite dolly parton song, made better by my favoured jason castro!

Well I can't tell you where I'm going, I'm not sure of where I've been
But I know I must keep travelin' till my road comes to an end
I'm out here on my journey, trying to make the most of it
I'm a puzzle, I must figure out where all my pieces fit
Like a poor wayfaring stranger that they speak about in song
I'm just a weary pilgrim trying to find what feels like home
Where that is no one can tell me, am I doomed to ever roam
I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' on

Questions I have many, answers but a few
But we're here to learn, the spirit burns, to know the greater truth
We've all been crucified and they nailed Jesus to the tree
And when I'm born again, you're gonna see a change in me

God made me for a reason and nothing is in vain
Redemption comes in many shapes with many kinds of pain
Oh sweet Jesus if you're listening, keep me ever close to you
As I'm stumblin', tumblin', wonderin', as I'm travelin' thru

I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru
I'm just travelin', travelin', travelin', I'm just travelin' thru

Oh sometimes the road is rugged, and it's hard to travel on
But holdin' to each other, we don't have to walk alone
When everything is broken, we can mend it if we try
We can make a world of difference, if we want to we can fly

Goodbye little children, goodnight you handsome men
Farewell to all you ladies and to all who knew me when
And I hope I'll see you down the road, you meant more than I knew
As I was travelin', travelin', travelin', travelin', travelin' thru

2008-06-30T14:40:00.005+08:00

omg i forgot yet again to apply to bloody army for overseas trip notification. ARGH. first time i went on mission trip and came back with a stupid warning letter. then happily went japan and forgot all abt it again. which leaves me vulnerably exposed to a potential $2000 fine.

$2000!!! its not unheard of. heard of 2nd degree friends who have been fined before! i cldnt be more sianed. and kancheong. which leaves me thinking of the inami family tombstone in tokyo. dont ask why i seemed happy. i sure am far from it now.

2008-06-13T02:58:00.003+08:00

its funny how perspectives change in such short time. one year ago i was so dying to get outta army, and seriously the excitement of entering uni was such a major source of encouragement. especially so during those damn crazily siong route marches. whats worse, being scout commanders we were made to do ridiculous things all the time to prove that we deserved to be called the elite of the battalion. so during route marches while the rest of the guys carried just their field packs, we were made to carry jerry cans. on top of our load. wth. jerry can alone weighs abt 20kg? so uni seemed not such a bad alternative to that!

dreamed of wonderful sch life. friends, girls, boys..exams..bring em on! then now, somehow its lost its appeal. suddenly rmb i wasnt really a sch kind of person. jc was really an excuse to see friends, see friend's friend with friends! but really, army time makes one grow up suddenly. the more siong the vocation, the faster. of cos clerks never grow up, damn slackers. so suddenly, aft being such a slacker all my life, being responsibilised with all ur duties and guys to take care of, it really comes as a rude awakening. no more isolationist policy. ripped apart by globalisation, want it or not. everything u do's gonna affect whether other guys or your team. something two years of books wont teach those who've not experienced ns, or girls for that matter. as much as i loathed ns, it was sth i never felt was a waste of time. i pray my son will get guards/commandos/ndu or even recce for that matter! the sionger the better the man he's gonna be. either that, or halfway downgrade!

as aimless as this entry goes, i say we guys are def much more streetsmart/battlescarred, brutally (slightly more) exposed to the working world and its perils. office politics you name it. extends even out to battlefields haha..seriously. and thus we're smarter than girls our age! if army's a glimpse into future working life, man is it bleak and disillusioning. thats why guys seem more retarded in groups i guess. which is why its irksome to hear some dweeb younger female species going arnd dissing us thinking they're more mature. so mature go be mamasan.

so to the two nsfs who died, guess we're reminded how vital ns is to s'pore. shit happens yea, but sometimes its things like this that make us take a step back and make us appreciate the thousands of nsfs out there training hard for the sake of our defence. maybe the girls wont get it, but those of us who've gone thru the system def feel sth everytime an nsf dies. so don't slam us guys for always reminiscing army times either cussing away or laughing hysterically. such life changing experiences elicit such social acts. thats why guys dig girls who can tell the diff in roles between the neighbourhood encik and a real encik.

2008-06-05T03:27:00.002+08:00

ok i know im getting loony. BUT how weird is it that right aft logging off i turn on tv and bourdain goes to...of all places..uzbekistan! hooray! unchartered territory. yes, the country that the lions are in right now, preparing for sat's match. the sheer coincidence..

2008-06-05T03:04:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
good morning.
blowfishit says:
lol..morning
blowfishit says:
cant slp eh
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
haha!
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
it's my daily routine..
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
i sleep late
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
real late
blowfishit says:
same man. abt 3 plus 4 then sleepy basket..bloody irritating
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
then u wake up late also.. then u find the day wasted..
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
haa
blowfishit says:
ya man, cant wake up before 2! its so bad i actually pulll up my curtains before i slp
blowfishit says:
but no use everyday so cloudy so nice to slp!
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
haha!!
blowfishit says:
im so bored i drive aimlessly around sometimes. that day drove to bukit timah hill. 3am. wth
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
wah!
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
u shld have asked me out for supper la..
blowfishit says:
okk if i see u online next time
Hey ppl, Im flyin off to australia on the 8th of july.. flight time 1950hrs.. says:
haha
blowfishit says:
the drive thru macs fella recognises me alr!

oh dear that only took up 5 mins. including adding colour. am running out of things to do, no more tv shows till at least a week. bear grylls has gone to zambia sumatra siberia and back. danny crane as horny as ever, meredith still as lost as day one. and then theres the real-time tv tv! im take-home-chef-saturated, gone rd the world too many times with anthony bourdain and seen too many old folk dozing off at rolland garros! thank goodness ana ivanovic's still there. but of course, who can complain about too much free time!

2008-06-03T01:11:00.004+08:00

haha the ticket to a most horrific match! ok so i expected spore to lose, but wth 7-3's ridiculous! pre-match build up was electrifying, albeit low-voltaged. throngs of fans jostling thru the turnstiles buying tics. and finally getting in after queuing for ages, made shorter by cutting queue aft spotting some acquaintances in front!

first goal scored, crowd went wild! then we trailed..and then the penalty! crowd went wilder still, thousands of delirious jumping fans. not sth u see everyday. and then of cos it went downhill frm then on! no thanks in large part to none other than mr Precious Emuejerare! ok this spelling's closer. then i almost fainted when that infamous curler from a uzbek corner ended up in the top corner of lionel lewis' net. who's gross misjudgement and subsequent flapping at air almost single-handedly pun intended, deflated the team's morale. bummer.

by then the fans gave up alr. amused ourselves by responding everytime an airhorn was blown, with shouts of 'butoh!' damn impressive when the whole stadium chants that in unison! not sure if it was audible on tv though. tragic how we've no national cheer whatsoever, resorting to this instead.

but its okay, was a good match. which gab's friend helpfully pointed out that each goal cost us 80 cents! at least the crowd still applauded the lions for their efforts. three goals scored is actually pretty excellent. pity the defence just didnt turn up. or were reading the papers instead of doing their jobs. maybe, just maybe, we should have 'parked the bus' in front of goal instead.

on another note. when i reached hme, went to lie on beach chair by poolside. so peaceful with nobody downstairs on a mon night. but before that, i did the unthinkable and actually forced myself to attempt some pullups. last time i pulled was my last ever ippt i took, waaaay back in aug last yr! nine whole months ago! ord loh! coincidentally, tt was last time i ever ran too haha! managed a grand pathetic total of 6. back in those limchukang days 13 was average. not too bad la, considering the most strenuous (mentionable) exercise i do's prob brushing teeth. i brush pretty intensely :D

2008-06-02T01:16:00.002+08:00

may just flew by. the month that is, not that may who's gonna bounce back this month. mayball haha! i liked last month. bought my mum her first ever birthday present! k la did treat her to dang good russian steak while in the army. not that i didnt love her before that, just never really showed it i guess. but the army brought out the better bits of me, as well as a whole load of rubbish too.

no time for you son, i wanna slp. goodnite! eh why so rude never say goodnite! im not leaving till u say goodnight! i count to three ah.. walao my mum drives me nuts. same as my dad, both think they're hilarious. every birthday of their's is a blessing from God, seeing them getting unnervingly older each year, and im so thankful with what He's given me. i am bursting with love! oh man thats so gay.

on the other hand. really struggling to serve in the youth committee ): was supposed to call this pastor to invite him to be speaker for youth camp end of year but was so dreading it. procrastinated almost a month till i finally asked my pastor for his contacts. then woohoo! told me he was moving to chiangmai so he def cant make it. hate talking to strangers, worse still, that dude has a doctorate, intimidating man. so, really a load off my back.

then came the bombshell today at comm meeting. i've to call an equally scary woman as alt. like i said, hate talking to strangers! worse still, need to perform for church anniversary again. we feel so damn conned, ok i at least, they only told us it was for mission trip. hated it then, but prayed so hard and figured fine, for the thais to see not so bad, at least not for whole church. now this.

but the others seem fine and refuse to boycott with me! how ah the resentment i feel's just scary. towards church leaders, no less. some more still got the issue of being forced to be bible study leader. but obstinate me refuses to budge. rarely talk abt church, but its getting a wee bit too much now.

never thought i would ever say this, but i miss my p4 class! argh. no more endearingly innocent questions like are clouds alive! then why can they move! asked with a frown and most perplexed face i've seen ever. though for one cute student there're ten more prats out there who give me the finger behind my back and think i never see..and muttering 'noob' when i scold him haha! one of the funnier things i've been called by this tiny gangster in class. laughed halfway thru scolding him, which reinforced my class to think of me as some psycho..

so the last day of sch was their sports day! so fun. luckily had the other cute relief along with me or else would have been really boring. she did time keeping while i led the prize winners to the tentage lol.. everytime we went anywhere tgt or talked, them cheeky kids will either scream frm the stands or sneak up frm behind and say 'ur gf/bf ah!' to us. first few times said no la, colleagues. no use, still keep disturbing. realised must say 'yah so what?' or sth along those lines. they'll stare back puzzled, then shut up and walk away! oh the science of children..

anyhow, gonna watch the lions vs uzbekistan tmr with bt and gab! assuage my guilt at knowing even liverpool's kitman's name but not that of Precious E's name's spelling. precious emunageaakjgajkg. what a funky name.

2008-05-14T23:03:00.004+08:00

wah first time i tried using a scanner ever in my life. it works! and dont laugh, i know i look like sth out of alien workshop. my ever reliable buddy on my right, jaimes. never leave food unattended with him nearby. had to lock my lockers every night or wake up with all my food gone. spot the other two cj guys in there.

but this is funnier i think..short like mad! no wonder teachers loved me so much! and no i did not rip the other half off on purpose, dunno why i found it like that also. shamus damn cute, 2nd row thrid frm right. and fatty andrew in front row. he's thrice that size now haha!

ok gonna find some other things arnd the house to scan. oh! here comes the terrapin hehheh..

2008-05-02T15:21:00.003+08:00

Mother Theresa _______ her life to helping the poor.
1) spent
2) dedicated
3) gave
4) sacrificed

if any of u answered anything other than 2, you're as smart as half of my class who got it wrong! and these folks insisted that sacrificed was the right answer. so i explained..

sacrificed. involves dying in exchange for something you want to attain/achieve. was abt to give an example of terrorists, then realised how wrong that would sound! instead i went "Jesus sacrificed his life to save us." my goodness, shameless brainwashing of young minds. but got the point across to them immediately. christian sch you see, just refreshing what they learnt in chapel a few weeks ago haha..

dedicated. means to give of your best, doing all within ur ability and power to achieve something. a dedicated teacher. eg: Mr Inami is a very dedicated teacher who tries his best to teach his class, despite them being very mischievous. you see, im a firm believer of giving them live examples that they can visualise/experience to help them rmb things better! then there was this uproar of disapproval/agreement mixed together and took me quite awhile to get them to settle down again!

then for science, one of them asked me why do leaves have holes (stomata)! thought for awhile, then told the class to imagine if every leaf on earth grows noses instead of stomata. wouldnt that be a scary thought! some of them screamed hahaahhha!

2008-04-29T16:29:00.005+08:00



Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
It hung heavy on the tree above your head
This chaos, this calamity, this garden once was perfect
Give your immortality to me, I'll set you up against the stars

Gloria, we lied, we can't go on
This is the time and this is the place to be, alive

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
and there is discord in the garden tonight

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

I cut the arrow from your neck
Stretched you beneath the tree
Along the roots and baby's breath
I covered us with silver leaves

2008-04-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

hullo. contrary to popular belief, no i didnt get hiv after spending two weeks in thailand and decided to lie low. in fact, had one of the best and most meaningful time there ever! here's sth that anyone who might decide to go on future mission trips shld ponder about: don't go there thinking that u're more fortunate than them or whatever. you'll be so humbled at realising how totally flawed that thinking is and that there's just so much that they have which we don't. and i think God really smacked that lesson right into me during the time i was there! leave that for some other time.

updates. i've been working, wrong. slaving away at a pri sch the past month. cut story short. basically, got assigned the 2nd worst p4 class. there're these self proclaimed 'four heavenly kings' who are really mischievous/disruptive students to the point that they made their eng/sci/math teacher quit. pro-ness. i realised what i got myself into only 30s into my first encounter with them. only their chi teacher's left, who basically cant run away cos shes their form teacher! and i ended up becoming their eng/sci teacher. thus taking over half of their timetable up, seeing them even more than their form teacher. oh forgot, social studies too.

soo much rubbish to mark. spelling, ws, tests, workbooks.. and now i know why i always wondered why my pri sch teachers all seemed deranged to me, always screaming their heads off. tried many methods, but the only way these kids listen to you is if ur voice thrashes the whole class' combined! i swear giving commands to a whole company of soldiers is 6.5 times easier than 42 screaming kids. it aint easy, cos the only time i shout's usually..no, unusually! ok la at my mum and sister. the louder, the more love shown!

but the majority of them's damn funny and even lovable. this coming from someone who hates kids. the p6s are fun bunch. so cheeky. scold me for not being attached. wth! always matchmaking me with random classmates, much to my horror. and they get damn fed up everytime i say siao ah so young! haiz..kids..always thinking they're all grown up alr! and there are some who want to intro me to their cousins or sisters around my age haha! these 'accident' kids.. so every week at least one new case of love develops in class. highly entertaining, these permutations.

but its terrible how everywhere in sch i walk, some random kid will scream my name out of nowhere like i owe them money. over zealous friendly creatures. sometimes they scream from three floors above.

i love my job! half day only! i am almost overpaid heh heh..

2008-03-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

finally, more realistic pictures of the man of the moment. this guy sure does play a mean game of hide and seek..

anyyway, off to chiangmai later. considering whether to stick some of these posters around the airport. just in case mas decides to take MAS outta town. bye!

2008-03-12T02:42:00.006+08:00

im gutted that kt tunstall's coming to town, but i'll be in thailand/myanmar! huge fan. bigger than the one in bugis street. she's good value for money, soulful like sarah mclachlan plus melissa etheridge's rock edge. she uses this thing that records her tamborine/beat then replays it while she goes about her song. seems like some schizo loony the first few secs of the vid as she does all these things, but it somehow works out well in the end. ok stop raving.

why oh why couldnt you have come just a day later! argh.

2008-03-07T02:14:00.005+08:00

shit i made the grave mistake of dozing off before bedtime again. lying on my bed and think knocked out at around ten. now wake up alr cant go back to slp! last week also same, ended up feeling sleeping only at 7am after watching liverpool thrash inter haha.

anyyway, had the battalion's ord dinner at chevrons yesterday. momentous occasion seeing the remaining army mates finally ord-ing. so many emo ppl crying and all. threatened to take their pics and facebook them haha! prob is i dont have facebook hoho.. but overall it was a lousy function cos for the thousanth time attending such dinners, i've never won any lucky draw prize! not even a mini fridge or a lousy juice blender! fed up ah! should have called the muttons and complained. damn funny all the losers like me took their tickets and threw them in the air in mock anger when the first prize winner was announced..

then after the whole fracas we jiak kim-ed! lucky never choke. so after deliberating whether to enter cos phuture was full, was secretly smug that the pro-phutures lost and we got to mambo instead haha! good stuff good stuff. kinda funny how there're always cj people there every time we go. and their greeting's always 'eh, cj right!' hahahaa..

i am very bored. shall go resume my managerial duties at newcastle united and show king kev how its supposed to be done!

2008-02-11T03:58:00.001+08:00

was looking thru pics and saw this one of us in pt kit on some taiwanese knoll. then it dawned on me-no more 5bx! even better, no more pt! nono even better still-ord! ok its just about setting in, the familiar feeling of total freedom again. me and freedom, good old pals we are. the sheer thought of six months of non-productivity thrills me! isaac lim's grim warning still rings in my head. laayzeeness is poooysonous!

on the downside, retrenchment means no more lavish lifestyle. used to just buy whatever i wanted, eat good sashimi almost every weekend. but its okay, small price to pay! was a mere 51kg when i had my army medical last week. time to watch me balloon back to healthier figures!

2008-02-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

ORD lo!!

hallelujah life is good again! byebye saf. for now at least.. you horrible employer..eat up all my leave. but its okay, the delirium of freedom overwrites everything. so its no more sergeant inami but mr inami. no more extras to sign woohoo! screw you csm! hello world, im back!

gong hei fatt choy!

sex and me!

2008-01-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

you know how sometimes your mum or sister leaves mags like cleo and seventeen lying around the house. and some of the articles i feel are really seem unsuitable for my mum to read! must ban her from reading such thrash, she's way past her teenage years and needs no sex education/horror stories of unwanted pregnancies. not good for old and conservative heart.

so anyway, happened to read about this 27 year old woman who's saving herself for marriage. my first reaction was, whoa lao charbor alr still virgin quite loser! which kinda disturbed me cos wth was i thinking.

ever since entering ns i've been inundated weekly by my bunk mates about their trysts and exploits with their gfs, sex buddies whatever. was quite shocked at first, then realised its so commonplace these days. then came a period of resignation when i thought what the heck. army friends all couldnt believe i'd not done it yet, then laugh like i'd just told damn funny joke when i tell them i'll wait for my wedding night cos it'd mean the world to my wife and please God too. obviously i've not been a good bearer of His word be it the things i say, how i act daily, cos of their reactions. im the type that doesnt really care what others think about me. but when it compromises the way people think of christians, that feeling sucks.

its no secret how hard it is to keep this belief going in such times! lovely world we live in where temptations abound and its just so easy to give in. not gonna be hypocritical and act like im some holy prick pun intended. just abstaining frm pms doesnt make me less sinful than you, its a phyrric victory really even if you manage to abstain till marriage but the things we continue to do daily make abstinence simply just a symbolic gesture.

i could go on rambling and ruffle a few (due to low readership!) feathers of those of you out there who've screwed somebody or somebodies in your lives alr. im def not judging anyone here cos we all have different beliefs and i respect those who say they really love/loved their partners as the main reason for doing it. can understand where they're comin from. prob would agree with them if i werent a christian. but i think we all need encouragement cos we're human, weak as we are, and its always nice to know that there're people out there who still believe in certain things that society teaches us not to anymore.

i might sound discriminating towards towards those who've popped their cherries alr but i def dont mean it that way. its not the point about wanting my future wife to be a virgin for solely my gratification. its more for me and her to be so filled with joy that what little we have left of ourselves, we've kept it for each other and more importantly, Him. it'd be great if my wife kept that for me, but it def isnt on my must have quality for her to be my wife. seriously la.

so! i hope anyone who's still struggling with keeping yourself for that special night, keep going on struggling! pray hard for such thoughts to go away and focus your attention on God. easier said than done but must try ok. there're guys and girls out there who still hold firm, little and lesser as they may be, your future spouse might be amongst these folk! for girls, help us guys by dressing properly or by dressing at all for some who dont really like their clothes. poor excuse to not wear things! cos we're made horny and lustful haha. and guys, dont fall for the 'whats the point there're no more virgins out there anymore' theory. worse, dont be like my friends who say must go for 16 yr old meimeis cos they're more likely to remain untouched! if in doubt, apply the 'wwjd' theory! (what would Jesus do)

okay sorry for making some of you feel sick when reading about my 'holier' side. just hope somebody even if its just one person who reads this realises that if such an ass like me has some bit of morality in him, it might encourage you (:

2008-01-29T01:35:00.000+08:00

hmm its been a sad week or two really. just came back after sending my dear jon off to melbourne. stupid traffic jam frm rochor exit all the way to marina. knn wasted 45 mins of my life away. luckily had jack johnson cd in the car to soothe things! haiz so sad, the fleeting moment of joy getting to meet up with overseas friends, only to say bye again weeks later. got a shock when i saw tyt at the airport terminal! damn full now. went to kap's drive thru and bought mcflurry mcwings meal with kevin on the way back. not long after having sakae's teppanyaki at t3. gotta train tummy up for the biggest party on 6 feb!

quite sad at heath ledger's death as well. always seeing him on cable due to axn's and best denki's obsession with screening 'a knights tale'. but most of all its his portrayal of one half of brokeback dudes that's left its mark. anyone who's yet to watch brokeback has gotta go rent it now man. then u'll get my point. damn touching tragic tale. in more ways than one though haha! def one of my top three favourite films. as sad as the notebook! and im sure the gay community's gotta be crushed cos they've got so much to thank the film for for somewhat altering and perhaps being responsible to no small extent of changing millions of peoples' attitudes towards homosexuality, turning them away frm disgust, towards tolerance at worst, and empathy at best. walao a three-lined sentence. pri sch english teacher prob turning in her grave now. if shes dead la.

one more outfield this thursday. one last time to get shagged. last twenty mosquito bites to endure. last time to carry heavy handheld thermal imager. one last scout mission. get the point? ord lo! soon it'll be lo hei!

rei: i only know myanmar! got see kelly osbourne in tokyo not hahaha..
chinos: first time you know..ran out of excuses to give for not going haha!

2008-01-15T20:53:00.000+08:00

today started off really well, only for it to get progressively worse. ended up with a horrific 1000 word essay i've gotta write. thats why im always wary of happy starts to a day!

ok so today was atec debrief day at pasir laba camp, kinda nice to return to good old sispec ground once in awhile. went to macs to get a fillet evm for breakfast. to my delight, the lovely auntie gave me a one dollar discount and flashed me a warm smile. all because i was an army boy in my smart four, looking v smart indeed haha! so for once in my one year 9 plus months in the army, i felt appreciated! other than by family and friends la. for all the shit we get and do for our country in the army, countless weekends burnt, nobody but us fellow soldiers understand what we go thru. i speak strictly only on behalf on us cheong sua soldiers, stay-in personnel who only get to book out on weekends! not those lucky 9-5 bastards who have the cheek to complain about working overtime even though they get to go home everyday. so do something nice for an nsf today, you'll be surprised at what even the smallest things like a note can do to brighten up his day :) fillet o fish never tasted that good!

then things all started to go downhill frm there. after a whole freaking day of 9 hrs of debrief by all the umpires, we were dropped the bombshell that the battalion failed atec. okay granted probably one of the worst kept secrets in recent military history! but the feeling still sucked. and seeing my pc getting screwed ten times over by brigade commander in front of the whole batallion's commanders wasnt easy to stomach. feel for the guy. but then again thats what their thousand dollar a month pay's for right...hazard pay!

as if that wasnt enough, our csm made us reflect on our performance and ordered a research style paper, all 1k worth of words of it. ouch. these are times you wished you were a man, free of such 'commanders have to bear responsibility' krap. its the higher echelons that screwed up their planning not us, why do we have to kio their sai? the perils of army life..

on a brighter note, i'll be going to chiangmai for mission trip in march! and hopefully visit burma too. i've always been intrigued by the land of pongyis and aung san so i really hope it materialises. but before that theres much work to be done to get spiritual life back on track.

everybody count down to the greatest party on 6 feb!

2007-12-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

alamak i've just realised i've yet to confirm my place in nus. prob is the dateline was last fri. been too darn lazy to go online click here type that for the thousanth time, so kept procrastinating. how now blue cow.. still need to take picture for student card appli. sibei troublesome. oh dear, sch's not even started and im alr so lazy. bad sign of thongs to come.

stupid ipod crashed. everything's wiped out. now must convert all my greys/nip tuck/office videos to mp4 again. which takes bloody long. SIAN. why so sian ah this weeek.. shit still got guard duty on sun! argh.

had commanders' cohesion at siloso today. damn fun. many handsome boys. hijacked my friends kayak frm behind and steered their boat towards two hot angmoh chicks tanning on the beach. so they were peddling when i clung onto the handle at the back and veered the kayak towards the two girls haha! they were damn paiseh cos was so obvious they were rowing towards the girls, who were staring back at them like they were two tikopehs. everytime they tried to row away i turned their boat back hahahha! the girls cldnt see me cos i was in the water plus covered by the boat. then later when they rowed back the other guys helped them disembark fast. by capsizing. lol.. at least our coastal hook ops training finally put to some practical daily use. only bad thing was getting chased out of hotel's pool. and sunburn.

time for nap.

2007-12-02T21:24:00.001+08:00

ahh hello. finally decided to post sth after being too lazy to do so for ages haha. been too lazy to even close this down, but then again not really a need to do so due to low readership anyways! so its finally dec again, mine and Jesus' birthday month! though technically he's not born in dec.. i like year ends. all my dear globe trotting friends frm far corners of the earth finally return :D welcome back fellas. i've been a lonely boy for way too long. evidenced by my swelling bank reserves. tis the season to splurge. on myself! down with inflation. up with freebies.

sweet scent of ord's getting a tad stronger these days. looking forward to my new dog! and hopefully a liverpool trip/foo fighters/john mayer concert. anybody interested...but of course. prob need a bank loan first haha. been listening to class95's 2ooo weekend or whatever they call it. i've always thought our generation's music's been krap, saturated with rnb/hip hop noise. so unlike the wonderful 90s with good old rock/metal music to the ears. then again there's good stuff like mr mayer in this era. he'll be our equivalent of beethoven of this century i reckon haha..

okay have fun folks (:

It's really over
You've made your stand
You've got me cryin
as was your plan

oh when my loneliness is through
Im gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons
but you will never have my rhymes

I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another
I hope she looks like you
Yeah and shes nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little getaway
My pride will keep me company
and you just gave yours all away
Oh, now im gonna dress myself for two
One's for me one's for someone new
I'm gonna do some things you wouldnt let me do
I'm gonna find another you
-john mayer

2007-08-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

so weird the feeling of total freedom. the liberty to sleep thru the day without worrying about what to do next with the men..make them wash toilet, jeep, standby bed, bring them go eat..sheesh. feel like a mother sometimes. been on forced leave since national day, a week plus away frm my effed up camp and boy does it feel good.

went fishing with my by-default-army-pals last week and im hooked! but the lao jiaos ask me why everytime i get a nibble i slowly reel the fish in instead of yanking hard to make the hook sink into the fishes mouth. always felt that was inhumane, so i use gentler method. wait for the fish to slowly bite bite bite the bait until CHOMP. it realises its in deep shit when it chomps hard, not on bait but on the hook! heh heh..dumb fish.. and now that the hook's firmly in place, slowly reel my prize catch in! sounds perfect way to fish..until one of them mentioned fish normally swallow bait whole, dont chew/nibble their food like a nibbler. which made much sense. how foolish i felt. but i was still top frag that day..caught four big ones till the styrofoam box ran out of space and the poor fishies had no space to move, let alone swim about. not bad for a noob.

oh and i found out sth cool today, there's free cable tv on a site! thanks to kevin. that means anyone can watch live epl on their com cos there's espn! alot more other channels like starworld, cinemax etc. but then again i've got scv at home so doesnt really profit me. but still, cool right. china rocks. first, piracy. now, free live cable. what next..free money? ok la that one japan, not china.

2007-07-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

okay updates! been too sian with life at the moment to waste time sitting down and type rubbish. but im free now and tv's spoilt so here goes. lets see, in the past month..

1. signed 15 extras in one week. prior to that, signed none ever since becoming a specialist, which is quite impressive! big misunderstanding, but half the platoon actually stood by me and volunteered to get punished with me cos they knew i was maligned! 10km run haha. damn touching la. so for once in my life i ran so far w/o stopping cos quite stress so many ppl run with you haha. my scout platoon rocks man..

2. ngiam's departure. another blow! knn stupid girl i miss you alot. who's gonna eat a triple decker while i enjoy my smoked salmon toastie? no more bodies to eat hum and all things crustacean with, now that you and ah may've left. no more partner to do random stuff with like gg to peoples park to buy shampoo. jialat, no more bff. sibei depressing ): it's a good thing i cldnt send u off i guess.

3. lydia's stay. so glad to see you when u came back! brings back memories of when i was such a happy free bird and all our church youths growing so close during those teen years. maybe too close for our own good(s) haha!! as in not me and u la, the whole youths as a whole. enjoyed last week's long chat by the harbour, tryin hard to embarrass each other digging up juicy anecdotes. but its hard to, when we're all so shameless and've long accepted each other's flaws and for who we all are as individuals!

so wassup with Him for taking away all my closest and dearest friends and planting them all over the world. australasia to mae sai? jon may ngiam lydia andrew woen.. hurts really. but better not complain, scully make me become missionary in africa or sth hehheh..

yea its been a really shitty month and its gonna get worse once atec starts next month. but epl season also restarts then! been making my sister watch football for abt two years alr. successfully cultivated a liverpool fan out of her haha..to which she's greatful for cos can sian boys with her love of the game. which guy doesnt watch football right. im such a wonderful brother.
okay im droning. smell ya folks.

2007-06-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

yet another sad sunday night. a whole week of pt/sai kang/trying to siam sai kang arrows beckons yet again ): cant imagine what it'd be like to ord..

but! the weekend's been great (: lets see:
1. dinner with nut! few things make me as happy :D
2. finally met up with khai. missed my dumb friend.
3. lydia's back! though for unwanted reasons. i'll be praying hard (:
4. dinner with grandparents. hi-fived my grandma when she waved goodbye after dinner. so cheeky, grabbed my hand.

then again, the bff's leaving soon. and i've duty next sat. knn.. which prob means im gonna be hundred bucks poorer. add to the fifty the fat indian ass extorted frm me on fri night. bang my car still ask me pay. but no choice, never put p plate. he wanted to call police since i dint wanna pay at first. then again, fifty beats a two hundred fine. serves me right actually haha..so please put ur p plate. my dad actually lied to my mum when she asked abt the scratches. started mumbling about some random carpark bangster who banged and drove off..saved me an earful frm her. i've a cool old man!

and miss yee wingman when are you coming back huh.

reina: beats me.
jon: when coming back? this time will spend more time with you.

2007-06-01T14:30:00.000+08:00

remember how it was in lower sec days, when it was considered damn cool to be one of the first in class to watch a new movie released? hahaa damn stupid in retrospect, but if we still lived in those times, i'd be cool as a cucumber by now. for a few weeks at least! lets see..managed to catch shrek on opening day, spiderman, pirates, or caribbean of the pirates according to my mum haha.. and so the countdown to the simpsons movie starts..

so for one of the v few times in my sibei suay army life, i've got a long weekend! been off since wed evening, only going back on sun. but im supposedly on standby, gotta get back to camp in two hrs the moment they activate us. thru the lastest technological marvel-the pager. rmb again the times when businessmen had a pager clipped to their belts and a huge dai kor dai with fat long antennae in his pocket? pager would sound and he would use his phone to call back. it just wldnt be right to call the hp first, always must page first haha..funny humans. so in the past thirty secs, you've used up precious braincells to recall totally unnecessary rubbish details. the perils of the internet..

2007-05-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

basket i'll be outfield next week, cant watch the liverpool match! grr.

damn full, just bought my parents dinner. hundred sixty bucks! but never had that much satisfaction spending money like that before. my mum's half centenary.. she was saying how she was halfway to her grave already, then i told her where got? more than half already, not long left. cant possibly live till hundred right! expected to get an earful from her but surprisingly she laughed. morbid sense of humour.. my mum's getting more cool by the day, always cracking lame jokes trying to make me laugh. gets an 'a' for effort but 'f' for funniness, or lack of it. guess as they get older they become more lovable! every birthday of my parents i'll wonder if its the last i'll spend with them, cos who knows what God's plans are right? but if its really the last, i'll still be thankful to Him for my lovely folks all these years. hope they'll last long to see me get married though. heck, they've not even seen me bring a girlfriend back home!

been feeling really jaded of late. damn bloody sick of army life, sick of waiting, sick of thinking bout things that'll just never happen i guess. it sucks having to sit and not be able to do anything about it. ahhh. but thats what makes life that much more interesting!

oh does anyone have an extra ipod charger or wanna sell me one?

may: hello! come back let me see ur fat tummy again hahaaa.
reina: i dictionary.com-ed your name!
bff: haiya you better find me a replacement..
anon: i know hahaha!

2007-05-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

ooh liverpool's in the champions league final again! sneaked to the company mess in the wee hours of this morn to cattch the game with the guys. mighty glad i moved my lazy ass downstairs to the comfy sofa and good tv. in camp that is, not home.

i'll be at sembawang wharf till the 15th, work two days off one day. offs on 5,8,11 and 14th. advertising for ppl to jio me out go gaigai on those sacred days.

oh ya, why on earth's everyone locking their blogs or requiring password to view! started with one or two folks, then steadily proliferating to disproportionate proportions! dont need lock la, dont start to behave like hostile/unfriendly condominium-type neighbours. stupid neighbour so sneaky whole day close door, see me come out faster close door when they've just opened their door, make me wanna peek inside even more! one day when they come home i hope they find their door missing or sth. priceless expression on their faces i'll bet :D

one year ago, hk disneyland, happy like bird. sigh.

2007-04-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

taken drastic measures to stop hole in pocket from getting bigger! stayed home the entire weekend pfft. spent forty bucks total only i think, bought a dvd-rom for my com. hopeless com cant read dvds you see..and five bucks for the simpsons dvd rental fee. good stuff. felt odd laming my hard earned weekend like that but oh well..entertained by my mum. so animated when she watches liverpool matches. quite unflattering actually. birthday's next month..shall attempt to love her more in the weeks building up to that day haha!

i've still not used my ipod yet. itunes is rubbish. creative products are so much more practical and fuss-free.

?: its best friend forever la haha..
nut: i saw a cute spoilt brat today. thought of you!

2007-04-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

walao since i barely spent anything in kaohsiung, some disease in my brain subconciously made me spend abt 800 bucks in the few days that i've been back. 400 plus on the ipod (white, not u2!) alone, but worth it. now can bear to bring my zen outfield to chiong sua cos got back up haha..ooh cant wait for the $50 payrise. about time us poor sods get some recognition for our loyal services to the country!

think ive become an even bigger emo pot ever since i came back. been thinking about people leaving or who've left, and how life seems much emptier w/o them here. all thanks to miss eunice ngiam the bff whose impending departure's bound to make life less nice. stupid younice, not nice at all. later become as wild as may also then come back must live in jungle.

so its back to the grind now, whole week of mundane life to trod through. but make no mistakes, i am grateful to Him for even being alive! felt great to go back to church aft a month's absence. was just thinking what a horrible boy i'd be if i didnt have my religious convictions. not that im not horrible enough, but even worse than that. okie time to shower. wash my sins away haha! shit, blasphemy.

nut: get straight a's i go up stage sing for you!

2007-04-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

hola!
back finally. had a heck of an experience being away a month. emotionally scarred for life! one thing i've found out abt roc-their girls cost much more than geylang's. around 3k for one, add 500 more for younger ones. divide by twenty for currency conversion. that would amount to many taiyang bings (sun pastry?!). traversed thru so many mountain ranges and climbed up them endlessly..all i rmb was lots of grumbling, cursing, stumbling and thinking if i'd survive this trip, i'd never as much even step near a mountain or rock cliff ever again! the best and most logical way up mountains is by helicopter, like good old new zealand days :D

and then there was the crazy weather. supposed to be around mid twenties range, but fell to around 12 degrees the day our ten day outfield started. freezing our asses out in the mountains cos no one expected the cold front. really strong winds too. been joking amongst ourselves the min we landed that hopefully some tornado or earthquake would save us then get exercise cut. scully sth as good (but bad) really happened! some helicopter crashed into the mountains at the site of our first mission. then taiwanese media flooded there. so had our first mission cancelled! spent the day bumming arnd, cuddling tgt to keep warm. ok la not warm, less cold. imagine-blasts of cold wind, plus low temp. brr.

so with my newfound wealth, im gonna splurge. prob get the u2 ipod tmr. enough thinking abt it alr! any longer, they might even break up before i finally get it.

im just so jaded. jaded sia..jade seah.

so now tagboards ok again i guess.

There's a light
A certain kind of light
That never shone on me
I want my life to be
Lived with you
Lived with you

There's a way
Everybody say
To do each and every little thing
But what good does it bring
If I ain't got you, ain't got you

You don't know what it's like, baby
You don't know what it's like
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you

In my brain
I see your face again
I know my frame of mind
You ain't got to be so blind
I'm blind, so so so blind
I'm a man, can't you see
What I am
I live and breathe for you
But what good does it do
If I ain't got you, ain't got you
-beegees

2007-03-18T21:32:00.000+08:00

hmm so this dreaded day finally arrives! for the first time in my life i really dun wanna fly off. grandparents just called to say bye. so sweet la. nice ol' pastor of mine said he'd be praying for me too. he's known me since i was a young boy still wearing mickey mouse clothes to sunday sch..really like a second grandfather to me. and of cos my paranoid mum who's been anxiously warning me for the past few weeks not to visit prostitutes haha! siao ah pay money for sex..pay me maybe can consider hahahaah. ah rubbish..i'll save it for my wife :D damn sad, cut my hair today. almost as short as sispec days. then met samuel in town with his cute sister. how coincidental..was at timbre with him only the night before. he was like, what happened to ur hair! yest went out with you still so nice! haha thanks buddy..

how ah sibei sian, and i've not even left for taiwan yet. one whole bloody month! argh. radio's not helping too, journey's 'open arm's' playing now. can imagine my encik welcoming us with his open arms when we reach camp, raping us with crazy pt sessions. shudder..pray for typhoon or sth to hit our exercise area. then the magical words-exercise cut! can spare us the trouble of chiong-ing. ok la scouts dont chiong..we creep. whole platoon of peeping toms..

gonna watch my last liverpool match in some time now! smell ya folks soon. 93747305's the new hi card number for the next month! an sms or two thousand won't kill a fly yeah. stay safe, God bless (:

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds,  
Dreaming aloud.
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact,
Oohohohoh, I'm on your back.
I'm on your back.
Oohohohoh, I'm on your back.

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more.
Weren't you adored?
I cannot be without you, matter of fact,
Oohohohoh, I'm on your back.
I'm on your back.
Oohohohoh, I'm on your back.

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.

Now the heart is cracked
In two, I'm on your back.

I cannot be without you, matter of fact.
Oohohohoh, I'm on your back.

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you.

Now the heart is cracked
In two, I'm on your back.
-foo fighters

2007-03-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

walao just watched the arena and im feeling bimbotic. motion was abt bloggers getting more influential than journalists. so they went on abt how bloggers' views impact the online community and greater with their eclectic range of viewpoints/arguments. then i realised what im doing here, only know how to whine, grumble and tell the whole world what i ate for lunch. sheesh. i had excellent spaghetti bolognaise in camp btw. my camp food rocks :D

so after being in the army for 11mths, i've finally visited the medical officer to report sick today! damn garang i must say. but i've itchy feet so buay tahan must ruin my record. get free foot rot cream. but damn lame ask me wait one and a half hours for medication cos the pharmacist dude went for route march. the medic broke the news..sergeant, youve gotta come back later cos the medicine cabinet's locked. and i went, oh no problem, just go ask the pharmacist dude for the keys. i'll wait. and he went, cannot, we cant find or contact him. he's route marching. so i went, but he's just outside the medical centre marching around! and true enough, he passed us. then he stood there scratching his chin. seriously..these fat medics..can't be bothered to walk to the door to get the keys frm his colleague. but i could book out already so didnt bother to wait. stupid fatty insisted on me coming back later. didnt get my cream in the end. grr.

now how will i ever become more influential than a journalist with silly posts like this..

2007-03-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

haiz. back home tonight, but helping my friend cover duty tmr while everyone else enjoys half day off ): poor dude's been burning weekends coming back for remedial training for soc so decided to be nice and help him out. but cant help feeling damn sian. last two weekends left! argh. life sucks now, pc sucks. absolute monster who screams his head off at the spastic-est trivial things. really shitty working under such a sonofabitch of a boss. alamak, think army's really making me more whiney and hot tempered. must curb, must curb.

oh yeah, had my first ride on a motorbike last night! major adrenaline rush. though hugging the guy in front of you while sitting so near to him behind him was quite another thing. i've got new found respect for bikers now! takes lots of balls and considerable skill to travel 100km/h and above on such a skeletal contraption..found myself relaxing my cheek muscles and letting the wind rip open my mouth and blowing my face up to a really grotesque shape! but my hair was all flat after taking out the helmet. a big no no. stick to nice friendly cars instead.

im only blogging cos im waiting for my movie to be converted to psp-friendly version..so slow. its quite odd how this song never really became overplayed eh. thank goodness, cos its so damn nice and heartwrenching. good ol' emo song :D

you're the closest thing I have
to bring up in a conversation
about a love that didnt last
but I could never call you mine         
cos I could never call myself yours
and if we were ever meant to be
well that would justify destiny
its not that our love died,
it just never really bloomed

I cant let go no I can't let go of you. 
you're holding me back without even tryin to
I can't let go I can't move on from the past
without lifting a finger you're holding me back
-landon pigg

2007-03-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

hmm finally decided to spend a min converting to the new blogger. too darned lazy to do so each time i logged on! and so the past month's been much too messy..glad things are gradually getting back to normal. ok so this time its my turn to mess up, sorry and thanks to all who've helped us along (: to you, you've got like two weeks to unhate me. tick tock! who cares what everyone else things eh. i hope..

anyway, yeah sian la. going taiwan on the 19th. how am i gonna survive a month in an alien land where politicians hurl chairs at each other w/o my mummy..argh. gonna be freaking emo again sia. so if i call any of you folks please dont bye bye me or i'll be saying variations of byes back to you haha! wah piang in no mood to laugh la..sibei sian.

my new favourite band's the foo fighters. take note ah..

2007-01-28T13:33:00.000+08:00

came home on fri to see a letter frm nus on my table. my paranoid mother was damn worried it was some rejection letter or sth then asked me faster open! turned out to be some change of course application notification. v pleased that i'll never in my life have to take math again. was so sure after o's tt i'd never touch it again, only to find myself going nuts attempting to do hw a few mths later..

in a week's time i'll have one more year to ord! which is freaking inhumanely long. shit, in a week's time i'll be on tekong again. being accessor for the guys taking combat survival training. last time i went thru that, i had one prawn to eat for the entire day. knn accessor out to kill my poor group. but then again we were sleeping on our shelter everytime he came to grade our fireplace/shelter/animal traps etc haha.. was so shitty it wldnt even catch a snail, let alone a bird. in retrospect, i wldnt have given any food to us if i were him!

forgot what i wanted to say..so, off to sleep. smell ya soon folks.

2007-01-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

this scares me. always thought im more or less a patient and calm person..either i've changed or im only starting to know myself. but its tiring to go thru the same shite every single week. eat football, sleep football, talk shite. haha. saw tt on some guy's shirt at the pub just now while watching liverpool own chelsea. sweet.. on the other hand, was really nice to see you again after such a long time. hope life's been treating you good you rabbit (:

i love the foo fighters. one of the most underrated bands in the world. listen to 'skin and bones', the live recording of their concert. almost finished listening to the cd just now while waiting for stupid jaimes to arrive. good stuff. beats stupid songs rampant these days by lamers like pussycat dolls and paris hilton among others. just as im typing this rubbish, the super annoying gwen stefani song's playing on radio. bloody yoddler..

omg i think im growing into a bitter, miserable old sod. i must sue the army for this.

2007-01-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

happy new year folks!
found my sister's old a1 cd on my table and am listening to it now. ashamed to realise that i noe the lyrics to so many songs on it haha!
went out last night and the bunch of em ended up in my room. slacked by the poolside later on..reminiscent of the pre-army nua-ing months..so after sending off my bff and wing, jaimes and i ended up suppering at newton. spent fifty bucks gorging ourselves eating oyster/satay/bbq chicken/TIGER PRAWNS! so freaking huge and sexy. buttered with chopped garlic on top. almost salivated all over the table. sixteen bucks for one, but would even pay a hundred bucks for that lovely crustacean. ooh yeah. marry a tiger prawn when i grow up. too lazy to send him home so he ended up sleeping over. i suspect, much to the dismay of my parents, for bringing the thousandth guy to sleepover. hurhur.

just came back from dimsum with grandparents. polished off all the prawny dishes on the table. my cholesterol level shld be near lethal by now. feel like having tempura for dinner..

oh im a happy boy. explains the lack of updates of late..

sergeant inami on thurs! i could get used to the sound of that.. thurs morn back to camp. that means can go jiak kim and mumble on wed night! mumbler's corner. i've got $-200 in my account and my pay arrives in a week's time only. die la. next month must eat grass drink rainwater alr. but still, i wanna get the v suave u2 ipod video. but my great zen micro still works as well as the day i bought it. no problems at all whatsoever for almost two years. if only my life were as problem-free as it!

2006-12-17T14:03:00.000+08:00

popular to contrary belief, time does not fly! seems forever since it was one year ago this day, or this day one year ago whatever. one year ago had the biggest shock of my life when i walked back to my room after showering to see a grp of crazy teens camping in my room waiting for me to come out! very close shave indeed. but im still pleasantly surprised that ppl still give me presents at this age. always thought that ppl receive less presents as they grow older. not that im complaining of course heh. and once again im so damn touched at what i've gotten since i've pretty much been a lousy friend this year, caught up in my sad army life and other unmentionables. but got quite stunned when someone gave me a cross-stitched coaster. so touching. thanks ah if u're reading this. u make my mum shame in comparison in terms of effort! my dad best..happily flew off to shanghai.

never thought i'd be this happy being down with diarrhoea, but i am! okay off to shit for the millionth time today.. smell ya'll soon.

2006-12-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

why is it always the people you care about and not your enemies that inflict such damage to you? ohright no emo-ness now. for tis the season to be jolly! lets eat till we all explode and shop yourself to bankruptcy.

2006-12-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

basket i think for the first time in my life my whole family's gone and im left all alone at home for the weekend. what am i doing now? sitting here typing this shit. cant believe i just had dinner with long time cherished friends and headed home right after that. reached home like 10 plus?! which is so ridiculous cos i usually come back not earlier than three am on sat nights. with my mum complaining every single time how early i get home every week! on the day i decide to be good, she's not here. sigh. so much shit to study for combat intelligence test tmr. still got map planning crap to be done. my brains have refused to be activated after going awol for so long so now im struggling to cope with the intellectual aspects of the horrible scout course im in. three day stay on tekong next week adds the icing on the cake. whats worse, my poor battle-worn heart's rotting away. oh sympathy, where have you gone?

2006-11-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna fight no more
i don't know what we were fighting for
when we treat each other baby,
like an act of war
i could tell you a million lies
but it would come as no surprise
when the truth is like a stranger,
it hits you right between the eyes
there's a time, and a place, and a reason
and i know i've got a love to believe in
all i know, got to win this time

without you, one night alone
is like a year without you baby,
do you have a heart of stone
without you
can't stop the hurt inside,
when love and hate collide.
-def leppard

2006-11-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

ooh yeah. another good weekend! actually was quite shit come to think of it..but overally good la hah. met up with the buddy and jeremy for dinner @ hardrock last night. on a rare occasion that i wasnt there there with samsam cos he's always my hardrock partner. cos he always flirts with the chinese waitress and makes girls notice him..then when girls look over at our table at him they'll look at me too. hahaa..leeching off him. anyway not the point.. oh so jaimes had some fifty dollar voucher. ordered like crazy till the bill came up to over 120 bucks. not including drinks yet. stayed on for the liveband which was outstanding as usual. dancefloor was quite crazy. many young punks there last night..instead of the usual old fogeys. but alas..too sian to get off my chair the whole night. do i think too much or am i heading prematurely towards midlife crisis! for once, maybe booking in tonight would be good. at least the crazy 28km navigation exercise on tues wld take my mind off things. shagged cant think. can la..think of giving up and wanting to navigate my way home! ugh. life's good though (:

2006-11-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

gah! wanna faint. my bloody terrapin pee-ed all over the floor just outside my room. so cos my dad's an animal rights guy..he insists that the terrapin has the right to walk around the house like one of us. everytime my mum puts it in the basin where it belongs, my dad automatically gets him out! was fine initially when it was younger and smaller, only prob was finding it. literally had to search high and low for it cos it hides damn well. must shift the whole sofa away to retrieve it. but nowadays the fella's gettin old. that means weak bladder too. and yeah..shit happens. it walks around till gets tired, then stops. for a leak. finnish alr then carry on walking all over the house, spreading its pee along with it. exasperating!! but quite funny also la..silly turtle.

so now im gonna act blur pretend never see the pee and go to sleep. hope my mum's frantic shrieks once she gets back wont wake me up. heh heh..

2006-11-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

i love the new lakerol forest berries flavour! tastes especially pleasant. in fact, smells like girls' hair. i've a sneaking feeling they gathered girls hair and blended it with some other flavours to create this new taste..im addicted. a dick third. addicted to you haha!

hmm. first day of recce commander course, or simply, scout course. at the prestigious school of military intelligence. hah no la not prestigious..just sounds nice. woke up bright and early for cookhouse duty then rushed to do some last min packing. basically shoved my whole cabinet's contents into the duffel bag. sat on, kicked, coaxed items inside to zip it up. said my goodbyes to the resident cat always loitering around the company line. promiscuous cat keeps conceiving! quite fierce too. was bored cos doing duty all alone on deepavali so decided to play with the pussy. took its two front legs and made it dance with me on the table. as in the cat was on the table. then suddenly it wolverine-d me and bit me, softly, after one too many tangos i think. made me realise what the hell i was doing making the cat look so ridiculous! let it go back to slp. yeah anyway i digressed, heck with my first day at work! learnt absolutely nth cos slept thru the whole day's lectures! supposed to have had a run in the afternoon but my prayers were answered. tropical thunderstorm saved the day! my laziness gets a bit worrying at times..

and yet again i missed. sheesh..

2006-11-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

hah was looking at the com's calendar and realised its today!
remember remember the fifth of november! gunpowder treason and plot.
hope u're having a better remember remember the fifth of november day than i am. go out and celebrate this joyous occasion.

2006-11-05T13:42:00.000+08:00

i hate how i've gone back to swearing at the slightest provocation. hate how i've broken my swearing off swearing for almost two years, only to start again. but you know what..fuck it. like someone told me before, why try so hard to avoid sth if u noe u're gonna do it anyway. its saddening how people change, worse still if its someone you care about. so i guess enough's enough. time to get a reality check and move on. time to sleep also. not exactly the finest of days eh. but 'upside down's' playing on the radio now. happier now!

2006-11-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

it's a beautiful day (:

2006-10-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

im pleased with myself. firstly, despite reaching home bright and early at 6 last night, or this morn, i didnt sleep in church! the last time i did stupid marcus took a video..luckily didnt drool. so while listening to the msg, i realised i spent only fifty bucks this whole weekend! outstanding, considering the age we're living in, where noodles dont cost two bucks anymore and fuel costs 1.74 a litre or sth like that. and death doesnt solve monetary problems too. heck, die also must spend money! welcome to the black parade. realise im talking rubbish so i'll stop. its just the sianness of having to book in. bloody hell i miss you, and its only sunday..

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if you want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
-blink 182 feat me!

2006-10-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

been seeing so many jc students loitering around town/my house/everywhere these past few weeks, brings back memories! a year ago this time..i was in major panic mode! while the rest of the world seemed to be able to be disciplined enough to buckle down and study, there i was letting myself get distracted by so many things. study sessions always ended up being self-reflection/soul searching/daydreaming sessions! studying at home wasnt the best option cos i'd get bored after less than an hour and just stare at the pool. then get up and walk up and down the side of the pool letting the waves wet my feet heh. then guilt wld set in cos realise im wasting precious time, so take my whole pile of notes to the beachchair and attempt to study. only to wake up later, horrified that somehow i fell asleep! panic at the disco sia. so left with shaw runme library to study at. not bad la..but v cold. always wake up with that fever feeling cos too cold! and that very anal malay library auntie who hates me. to the extent that she noes my name. stalker..so paiseh kena chased out for over enthusiastic greeting of friends. ahh..nice memories of the library..

this song's been stuck in my head for the past two weeks. but its such a nice song that it's yet to produce that drive-u-nuts feeling when a song plays repetitively in ur head for the longest time! as good as a U2 song. cheerio!

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
-rivermaya

2006-10-23T15:40:00.000+08:00

last night was hilarious. went out with good ol buddy jaimes plus two other bmt mates. caught the horrifically disappointing liverpool-man u match. of all places at eskibar where there's no commentary wth. left the place after the match a dissatisfied fan and customer.

so we were heading towards cathayhouse for movie when stopped at traffic light. then this grp of girls walked by, gonna cross the road alr. then jeremy said 'eh open the door ask them come in!' the other two were like haah yeah open open, got space! then i turned and saw this cute girl haha..someone behind said wah that girl damn hot. dont watch movie alr la send them all home! and we started talking rubbish and laughing like retards. then jaimes said eh actually that girl (another one, not the damn sexy one!) looks like wing. but was quite hazy and my degree went up also, cldnt really see clearly. then they walked right across in front, and how coincidental la, really turned out to be them! wing, ngiam and her hot mongolian friend annabelle haha.. wound down the window and waved while jaimes shouted at them cos they were reaching the other end of the road alr. then so paiseh all the bikes turned to stare at our car cos we were damn noisy..with the girls shouting back too. this car full of singhs/pakis wound down their window and started saying hi and waving back to us too hahaa! cartoon sia..then came literally inches within knocking down a grp of pedestrians while turning, not concentrating on road! damn scary la. and just mins before this stupid blind taxi almost turned out into the side of the car. highbeamed him, hoped he saw stars heh. i was like 'guys we almost got into quite a serious accident btw.' they were like 'oh really? die also not you die, cos the driver always protects himself!' how very true. then carried on messing around behind. met up with khai who joined us. finally ended up at cine cos the rest of the places didnt have midnight movies. the prestige is a good show! though a tad sadistically disturbing. perfect show for a romantic movie date. drove home in thick lovely haze. could barely see fifty metres ahead. somehow made it home in one piece. haze rocks, soc got cancelled that day cos psi went to 130 plus i think. so, lay off the haze. it brings more good than bad.

2006-10-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

back home! suddenly told us last night today got half day off after division run in the morn. no one's complaining. its only tues, but had a hell of a dramatically exhilirating yet scary day yest.

so there i was minding my own business sitting outside the company office thinking of what a horribly long way more to go to the weekend in the morn and a thousand other dreary thoughts when my sgt asked me to drive the jeep to mandai camp as part of a convoy with the bikers. boontong's camp! naturally i was elated, thats some fun shit to do. some more had chance to skip route march. met with protests by my bunk mates cos all wanted to drive, plus i siam-ed the previous route march which almost killed them heh! oh saw boontong who opened the gate when i arrived!

esp with so many army guys getting into so many accidents recently. felt powerless when . . spoilt. finally moved out. was sorta concerned cos i didnt wanna risk being charged if kena caught by military police, not worth risking my weekends.

anyway to cut it short, my trusty ol jeep broke down halfway! me and my friend just sat there laughing at our pathetic state while traffic started to build up behind us. seriously suay la. every car that stopped beside looked at me and smiled. some empatisingly, the others mockingly i guess. not everyone so nice smile innocently w/o sadistic thoughts one la. i was the last jeep in the convoy so got left behind stranded along jurong kechil stretch. the courts there..turned out no petrol. but at first didnt realise it was so cos the meter indicated full tank! bla bla bla, called for another jeep. jeep came, took over and went to link up with the bikers waiting at the shell station.

so there i was, suddenly made to lead the whole convoy of bikes back to camp cos no more sergeants and we were the nxt in line in the command chain. fun fun. machiam national day parade..one whole convoy on the road. little did i expect worse shit to happen. after trying desperately to rmb the route back to camp cos never travelled there before, the biker behind shouted 'corporal half the guys are missing!' apparantly convoy broke off cos one of the bikes lost ctrl my balls shrank la at first didnt know how serious. some more sure die..lead convoy halfway realise the men got lost! saw my life flashing before my eyes haha..

but there's no time i need to go back now. no time for ending! just like my history essays hahaa..smell ya soon folks.

-edited/censored hastily. army internet police stepping up checks.

2006-10-15T15:35:00.000+08:00

had such a fun weekend, sad its come to an end again ): fri night..my dad gave me the car to use. put in my buble and U2 cds to cruise along to. wanted to drive to airport/borders but changed my mind. drove to samuel's house instead to pick up my hot date. finally went to timbre again! band was smashing as usual..place was all warmed up and rocking when we got there. full house..waited looonng to get a seat, but well worth it. nothing gets me as high as good ol indie rock..thats gd cos can save money on alcohol heh. nice windy night, live band, hot date, very fine ladies, best of all..no need to walk all the way back frm smu to hotel phoenix for nightrider! was one happy boy indeed.

and yest..spent more money again. saw quite a few cj ppl. looks like everyone's attached. cldnt help but feel unloved again haha! die la at this rate i'll be left with those left on the shelves or the plain desperate to choose frm. caught that racing movie..damn funny. but little miss sunshine still the best i've watched in a long while. a must watch. went to watch the man u match at chijmes with bt, gabs and adel. basket man u won. double basket..liverpool didnt. left chijmes much poorer. but heck..i only get a life two days a week. oh the misery.

scrw tagboard. pissing me off. but its ok, a tag's just an sms away!

2006-10-01T17:14:00.000+08:00

shit la returning back to unit tmr. freaking depressed. spent the weekend being the family driver/slave. almost killed a huge monitor lizard just now. driving up-hill along the v winding south buona vista rd after church when i noticed this odd thing sticking its long tongue in and out of its mouth on the road. for a moment i thought i saw godzilla hah! damn gross creature..luckily managed to siam it but think the car behind didnt cos it was so sudden. poor thing the driver..a mess of green and red slime on his tyres..

got conned into ferrying my mum and auntie for their shopping spree yest, after dropping my dad off at his office. basket..was told to 'pick up' my auntie frm john little so i agreed, thought just pick her up and send her home. scully pick up alr they asked me go peoples park to pick sth up. three hours eaten up already! so they finally arrived, with many shopping bags. was damn pissed alr, wasted my whole afternoon. so i sped all the way home haha..still didnt end..picked my dad up frm office. too much. laughed at my predicament. went for dinner at newton after the liverpool game. been years since we've been there as a family. best dinner i've had with them in years. ahh love them so much though we're all so dysfuntional..esp my super lame dad. even i come nowhere close.

oh, happy children's day. to the kid in all of us. rmb the times when we were such ugly kids. bloated face and mushroom hair. no? speaking for myself at least hurhur.. shit shit shit 7.30 lim chu kang camp. !@#.

2006-09-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

stunning la today's obituaries. think they're abt 9 full pages of this guy's face. two of them are full page picture of his face. never in my many years of looking at the obituaries have i seen such an extravagant announcement of someone's demise. the only ones that rival him were ong teng cheong and rajaratnam. had the habit of frequently turning to obituaties section since i was a kid. i rmb being fascinated the first time i saw someone's face whom i knew! sounds insanely perverse and twisted..but i was still a kid and i knew who he was but thats it. not linked in any way. when i die i hope those who bury me wont spend a fortune on some elegant coffin with velvet/lacquered wood or stuff like that. and being buried is v costly, think a plot sets u back a few thousand bucks. just burn me up and sweep me into an urn and store it in a columbarium! no need to come annually to put flowers or visit my ashes. waste time. and i hate flowers. hate seeing ppl cry. just faster die so we can meet up again in heaven haha! or hell for that matter..

my love, the jeep.

2006-09-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

today's officially the most enjoyable day of my army life! in the final stages of jeep course, which includes island-wide driving, 200km in two days. got to drive the uber cool auto transmission jeep, open-top, totally exposed cos there're no doors, no windscreen, just like some convertible! ok la convertibles have doors, windscreens..this jeep's damn skeletal. get into accident sure die! drove up and down sle, bke, some other expressways.. got freaking high with my friend in the seat beside me! screaming our heads off like maniacs everytime some heavy vehicle speeds damn close to us on the expressway which creates this slipstream-like effect threatening to blow our jeep offcourse haha..the wind in ur face gets quite intense once you pick up speed.. feels like ur contacts getting embedded in ur eyeballs due to the pressure of wind on it! damn siao la. halfway started singing at the top of our lungs into the wind while driving down sle cos its so straight and tarmac-y. saw an exploded snake and cat en-route to destination. stupid jaywalkers.. exhilarating..felt like some small over-excited kid. cldnt walk straight after getting off to break for lunch.

the best thing? round two tmr! woot.

imf/worldbank and singapore.

2006-09-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

poor singapore. so after months of hard work and effort being poured in to usher in the imf/world bank delegates, all it gets is being slammed left right up down diagonally for showing the red light to these protestors. dont think its as much a case due to patriotism but more so one of unjust and unfair criticism that pisses me off. paul wolfowitz, i suspect, is a scheming man. how he even got the post of world bank chief was controversial..he being an american and the fuss over how it'd appear that america wld use it as a tool to tighten its grip on the world economy, get that edge over the european union..but thats another story for another day.

realistically speaking, which leader of a country or organisation wld honestly welcome, almost enthusiastically, open criticism of his institution in the name of enabling 'self-improvement'? surely its human nature to prefer a stable status quo and not wish for sth to destabalize ur regime or threaten your credibility? the worldbank/imf leaders aren't stupid. choosing singapore to host this round of talks wasnt solely due to infrastructural reasons. quite sure its cos of its no-nonsense political stance of orderliness and controlled freedom of expression, admittedly stifling at times, that this was chosen to be the venue. the impotency of the world bank during the asian crisis esp, made it clear for all to see that the organisation's really quite useless, despite its laudable aims to aid global econ growth. since then, its reputation's been tarnished..mounting criticism and all that rubbish started pouring in. my point being, now that its finally starting to rebuild and prove itself as still relevant in today's economy, the world bank def wldnt want yet more criticism to come its way and sway public opinion against it.

the solution: come to singapore! with them being all-too-aware prior to this week that singapore wldnt change its laws to permit a free-for-all worldbank-lambasting session by protestors frm all over the world. too many hyphens in a sentence..not sth an english teacher wld approve of. and the previous country out of the us to host the meetings? dubai i think. how coincidental..yet another country with strict laws and tight governmental political ctrl. i'd bet my last dollar that indonesia wont be selected ever to host future worldbank/imf meetings. nightmare for them to hold the meetings in the land of demonstrasi where the people seem to protest/riot abt anything they can think of. it'd prove more destructive to the world bank than ten Great Depressions. so now that they're in the safety of singapore, wolfowitz can go all out and appear to be all supportive of constructive criticism and bemoan the lack of opportunities to do so, safe in the knowledge that such protests wont be underway. pity singapore, the scapegoat. world bank 1, singapore nil. scheming american cow..

and that's my conspiracy theory of the week (:

2006-09-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

finally got off the tv. was starting to get all stiff frm potato-couching too long! but what a great night of tv haha..two season finales! after all this while, finally found out who won last season's amazing race. been watching every episode of every season but then cant rmb why didnt catch that season's finale. think was hongkong or bmt..but well done hippies! best contestents ever.

and omg..rockstar: supernova. powernuts show! better than last season's inxs one. well done lukas! but im quite sure supernova wont experience some kinda meteoric rise back to superstardom. all these reformed bands with ex-members of iconic bands such as guns and roses, metallica, red hot chili peppers...blah bla, dont seem to be able to recreate the success they've previously experienced. make one or two albums then disappear into oblivion. audioslave..velvet revolver, alterbridge..panic channel..all die until dunno where already. dont be alarmed if shane+kian and brian+nick plus maybe a ronan keating or gary barlow merge to form some new super boyband hahha..long live boybands!

oh bono might be coming down for the imf meetings. such exciting times we're living in.

2006-09-11T23:02:00.001+08:00

hard to believe, but its already five years since that fateful sept 11th of 2001. much has changed since then..i've blossomed into a fine young gentleman serving my country with pride, minus the occasional lamentations of my life taking a turn for the worse of course. except, not so occasional. hah! so i was lying by the poolside just now just relaxing after my run, damn peaceful. and i get this surge of endorphins when my body senses that it gets to rest/slack..v odd. start to feel all smiley and energetic. back to my point. yea then i started to recall the whole 9/11 incident while it unfolded on the telly years ago and how i felt back then made me quite sick. i rmb thinking how cool was that..flying planes into buildings. for real! used to do such things playing flight simulators on the com but seeing it happen in reality was quite unfathomable yet awe inspiring. then my sji classmates started flooding my phone with msges saying exactly all those things i felt. on the one hand, of course you feel deeply for the innocent folks who lost their lives, but on the other, deep down inside you couldnt help but feel the tiniest feeling of glee that mighty america aint that impregnable afterall. just witnessed a significant event in history. dont get me wrong though, of course if there was a choice i wished it wldnt have happened. and wanting to see america be shaken doesnt equate to wishing such monstrosities on its citizens. its like being on mahathir's side for standing up to the usa but not condoning the japs' actions at pearl harbour. haha it'd take some weirdo like me to comprehend what im trying to say..

anyway, as what the fat lady in lttle britain would say in her thick british accent, 'oooooh he's gooorgeous!' take time to smell the roses! or is it grass? whichever the englishman says.. can smell him too.

2006-09-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

hard to believe, but its already five years since that fateful sept 11th of 2001. much has changed since then..i've blossomed into a fine young gentleman serving my country with pride, minus the occasional lamentations of my life taking a turn for the worse of course. except, not so occasional. hah! so i was lying by the poolside just now just relaxing after my run, damn peaceful. and i get this surge of endorphins when my body senses that it gets to rest/slack..v odd. start to feel all smiley and energetic. back to my point. yea then i started to recall the whole 9/11 incident while it unfolded on the telly years ago and how i felt back then made me quite sick. i rmb thinking how cool was that..flying planes into buildings. for real! used to do such things playing flight simulators on the com but seeing it happen in reality was quite unfathomable yet awe inspiring. then my sji classmates started flooding my phone with msges saying exactly all those things i felt. on the one hand, of course you feel deeply for the innocent folks who lost their lives, but on the other, deep down inside you couldnt help but feel the tiniest feeling of glee that mighty america aint that impregnable afterall. just witnessed a significant event in history. dont get me wrong though, of course if there was a choice i wished it wldnt have happened. and wanting to see america be shaken doesnt equate to wishing such monstrosities on its citizens. its like being on mahathir or castro's side for standing up to the usa but not condoning the japs' actions at pearl harbour. haha it'd take some weirdo like me to comprehend what im trying to say..

anyway, as what the fat lady in lttle britain would say in her thick british accent, 'oooooh he's gooorgeous!' no matter how busy, take time to smell the roses! or is it grass? whichever the englishman says.. can smell him too..

2006-09-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

isnt turning out to be a fantastic week thus far eh.

1. andre agassi
2. steve irwin

cant rmb when agassi lost..this or last week la. was a long time coming alr, but still sad to see him bow out for the final time. and with that, the end of the chapter of a tennis maestro. always sucks to see one of ur childhood heroes lose their superpowers, or die. as a kid, only rmb watching agassi and sampras. inspired me so much that i took the racket and ball, attempted to play in the living room of old house. smashed my mum's wall clock. but she didnt get as mad as the time i took an egg frm the fridge and crushed it under the sofa. v bizarre, dont know why i did what i did..

and yeah..the world's favourite croc hunter. i rmb the first time scv was introduced in s'pore way back in pri sch. pri 3 i think. the only thing i watched was cartoon network and steve irwin. dont think animal planet was invented yet, so cant rmb where i watched him on haha.. a part of me was always so enthralled by how anyone cld possess such huge balls and just tackle crocs like they were harmless lambs or sth. but another disturbing part of me was that i was always secretly hoping the croc wld turn around and eat him up! every episode was waiting for sth spectacular like tt to happen, but of course, no such luck. then as i grew older of cos became a bit more mature and didnt wish such things upon the chap. grew to respect what he was doing, as much as i dont like crocs, saving all those silly crocs and stuff. then the bloody stingray had to come into the picture..gonna eat more stingrays over the nxt few weeks.. he'll def be missed.

ah back to life. three weeks more of jeep course. two weeks so far of totally no physical exersions or exercise whatsoever. two weeks of junkfood, restaurant food and countless cans of coke. this is and will be the highlight of my army experience im quite sure haha..feel like droning on and on and on and..but.. the mind is strong but the body's weak.. then again who am i kidding.. been feeling my brain wasting away these past few mths..

2006-08-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

time flies. thus far, i've pop-ed again, am a corporal now! most importantly of which is the pay hike. i've not earned this much money in my life before haha! struggling to be responsible with my spending. but of course, peanuts to what those ocs ppl earn. damn overpaid!

anyway, my future's bleak again. was interviewed for the position of recce commander, of which i was the only one unfortunate enough to have passed it in my company. in a nutshell, i'll drive a jeep ahead of the infantry/main attacking force or basically everyone else, towards the enemy location. close enough to spot them, then plot a safe route of attack for the guys to take. somehow i wasnt thinking clearly back then, too excited at the prospect of being able to drive the jeep thus did well at the interview hoping to get selected. now that i am, realised its a nightmarish job cos damn tough. the flipside of the job's really bad according to some friends in it. hahahhaa well done..my army life just gets better eh!

today. fun day, took part in the army marathon thingy. view on the sheares bridge was picturesque. ate shark meat at rail mall. im anti-sharksfin btw, i think its horrifically inhumane. but then after eating the shark curry, became ambivalent. at least that shark didnt die in vain! but then still felt guilty..poor sharky. had some moral debate in my head for quite awhile after dinner. which of course sounds ridiculous, i think im going mad, if not already. stupid shark, as if i've not got enough on my mind to think abt already..

adel: no la dont worry not desperate yet. desperate's when i start putting you into the equation haha! eh joking ah :D
dhan: basket in ns how come can go holiday..
ray: on the contrary, im manly enough to admit!
silly willy: casino damn fun la! lets go once its up! yeah nz..great memories. how're u huh?
geri: so rude! anyhow draw and highlight my banana make me throw away..

2006-08-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

ok so im kinda bored but cant get to slp and stumbled upon this silly quiz which i felt compelled to do. er char, familiar? haha!

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. tekka maki
2. har gao
3. dars
4. cookieman cookies
5. peanuts covered with the golden brown fried thingy
5 songs I know all the words to:
1. basket case-greenday
2. sometimes u cant make it on ur own-u2
3. angels-rw
4. i love the way you love me-boyzone
5. love song for a saviour-jars of clay
5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
1. buy some love
2. get an airplane
3. give ten mil to church
4. let loose at vegas' casinos
5. hire financial consultants to make my money grow out of ctrl
5 places I would run away to:
1. hotel 81. clever right..
2. that small wooden, homely shack which houses a church at lake tekapo, nz
3. my girlfriend's four post bed.
5 bad habits:
1. terminal stage of procrastination
2. buying cds at will
3. getting irritated at ppl who converse in mandarin
4. leaving radio on even while slpg
5. being emo. pisses the living hell outta me.
5 biggest joys:
1. being christian
2. family
3. barely scraping into nus
4. music
5. money!

1. What is the best nickname you ever had?
taipei, tadpole, tsunami, yi ge bo li ping (one glass bottle), snufflenalagus or however u spell the name of that stupid elephant on sesame street. which i have never watched a single episode in my life btw. dont know why too. but, how the hell can nicknames be gd!
2. Which way of suicide would you choose?
sinful to even think of it, but jumping off a plane wld be swell.
3. Rate your social life from 1 to 10.
pre ns: 11 now: 4
4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
yeah but no but yeah but no but..argh no one watches little britain la wasted.
5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
hell yeah.
6. Will you die for the one you love?
duh. i'd go to war if i had to protect my family, and my future one.
7. Do you think love hurts?
HAH!
8. What is the best thing about love?
the initial stages of it
9. What is the worst thing about love?
the death of it, it asphyxiates.
10. Will you wait for someone you love?
without a doubt
11. What song best describes your love life at the moment?
when love and hate collide-def leppard!
12. Do you wanna get married?
dumb qn
13. Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
no
14. Do you keep memories?
everywhere
15. Is love always on your side or the opposite?
its not even remotely on my meter
16. Are you sick of love?
sick of not getting any!
17. Are you sick of the question of love?
not as much as im sick of not getting any
18. What are you going to do tomorrow?
dimsum with grandparents, meet folks who bothered to ask me out
19. What do you want so badly now?
to become a driver instead of lousy infantryman who walks..and walks..walks even more till feet get numb, blistery..
20. What's the song that you last downloaded?
i will follow you into the dark-deathcab
21. How much do you love music?
50 cent worth. laugh leh..
22. Do you play an instrument?
i whistle damn well, i blow my horn occasionally too
23. What movie did you last watch?
pirates, i think. does u2's vertigo tour count..
24. Do you believe in love forever?
yes. john 3:16. other than that, yup too. watch the notebook!
25. What's on your mind now?
things outta my reach, contemplating buying ps2
26. What song is on your mind now?
gimme hope joanna-eddie grant
plush-stone temple pilots. i thought jon did a great job on that song..

ok that kept me occupied for awhile. off to read my new book. tut!

2006-08-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

im in my 27th hour of my block leave and am bored. slogged nine long weeks for this short reprieve but alas, failed to fully plan what to do during my leave! argh. struck me when i realised it seems im the only one free now, the friends have all flew away, starting sch, duty-bound serving ns or busy with prelims!

anw was just thinking abt some feedback i've been getting. haha ok mebbe not feedback..but yeah. realised ns's stole me away frm my friends. to the point that they're disappointed/pissed. got quite sad but glad when they told me. for obvious reasons right. but you know what? its these memories of you all that keeps me going when the going gets tough! quite amazing how stuff like chocolate wrapper or a tennis ball makes u reminisce and make a rotten day less effed up, remind you that this shit's but temporal. oh im becoming a corporal soon btw! promotion=more $. sweeet. but, back to my story. whats the story, morning glory?

k so army's sppsed to make us all less emo right. but how can? when im surrounded by snags in my bunk alone, guys who're as or even more sensitive than me haha.. daytime chiong like bull but at night when quarrel with gf, friends leaving overseas, all start tearing at times. then suan each other mercilessly if they catch one another crying haha! gets worse the nxt day when they sabo the guy and tell our sergeant, who proceeds to tell more sergeants. all join forces and laugh! the shame, the shame.
smart me sits on a chair in front of my cupboard and sticks my head into my cupboard when i feel down. smell my uniform. hide from the world. my safe haven.

dearly beloved:

haha wanted to type all the names of all my friends off my head but got too lazy after number three! so there, shrunk list!
thanks for making me a better/worse/cheekier/horrible-er/kinder/hornier/more patient person in your own ways! may i strive to turn you all to become more like me. cos i think i' d like myself as a friend if i were a friend of myself. smell ya soon folks :)

jasmine: hello! army makes me wonder why i gave up jap citizenship at times haha! tolerable la. gd to see u enjoying urself in sch (:
bt: still my loyal fan despite strong competition frm new blogs on the block. keep it up.
rei: yes its not the end of the world! we'll play when we're all free ok. quite hard though honestly haha..
may: you just called haha!
char: i'll link soon ok! v lazy now. when will we pool/chun tin till the wee hrs of the morn again? those times sure were fun as hell..

2006-07-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

wah damn dusty. too many dusts spoil the blog.

strange how the last four weeks zoomed by. think its cos of how good life's been thus far. get to go shopping at the gift shop almost everyday. spending credits like water..buying random stuff like kiwi polish cos its free though i dont need it haha! last week was swell. navigation in forest relying on my trusty compass. dashed thru streams, boots stuck in mangrove swamps, chiong-ing up hills/knolls.. too shagged till u just walk into tree branches/saplings/thorns to clear your path. plus launching live grenades, firing anti-tank rounds, funfunfun! to think ppl in afghanistan do this everyday..not tt i wld wanna be in their shoes of course. but i hate my job as toilet cleaner. picking up pubic hair, wiping shit stains does not paticularly excite me.

work is good. helps you shove ur thoughts to the back of ur mind. unhealthy way of dealing with things. gonna go nuts at this rate sia. doesnt help that more ppl are leaving s'pore! bye bye may. looks like wont be playing too much tennis in the mean time. no more tennis/f1 watching mate! no more taxi sharing aft late nights. even taxi companies out to give me heart attack by increasing fares. now like that how ah? basket..stop cab at hdb and run off w/o paying. anyway, hope u'll find friends as good as me over there (: just wanna scream rant cuss and do jumping jacks sometimes..actually no la. too tiring. emo alertt..better stop.

good night folks.

2006-06-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

how on earth i've gotten myself into command sch does stump me. off to new grass at sispec tmr, and i am not excited at the very least. not the motivated soldier they're recruiting. in retrospect, shld have slacked more! then can be driver.. ok wrong attitude. i must have done something right to deserve my posting. i'll try not to die lah huh.

may japan thrash brazil. go nakata! might be slightly biased..but i think the whole world shld be supporting japan. but alas, they're already halfway into their coffin alr. oh well there's always 2010. south africa is it? but then no more nakata..maybe got inami. hurhur.

shit time to slp.

2006-06-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

the weekend's been good! reverted back to the pre-bmt days of slacking at its finest. does take some effort to slack this much you know. finally finished reading 'my friend leonard'. yet another good book. but read frey's first bk first it'll be beneficial. all nineties weekend on class95 finally, good to hear the likes of fools garden and petshop boys on radio again haha. thats why i'll only go along if its mambo nite or retro at hard rock! not many ppl sing along to 'love in the first degree' anymore haha! old at heart..

saw emil chau at westmall. in fact he walked past me when he stepped out of his van. didnt get starstruck like i did when i saw moses lim in japan ten yrs ago. thus, i conclude that he's lost his mysterious celebrity powers, no more superstar aura emanating frm him anymore. must blame nkf for making him perform ever too frequently, resulting in phenomenon of reverse popularity. this occurs when a celeb's over-exposed to the public, leading to public weariness, sick of seeing him too often. another term more commonly used is depopularisation. poor dude.

ah gotta go back tekong for guard duty on mon. sian. khai wld agree tt im a good friend. im sitting, waiting, wishing that my dad wld go to bed soon so i can nick his car and take it out for a nice spin hhaa. so far ive driven a mazda 3 and merc e240. feel like some sec sch kid needing to do stupid things like this to get adrenaline rush! somehow driving illegally's more fun than live range or even grenade throwing. hope the fuzz are too busy with worldcup mania to bother me.
11 hrs to book in ):

lamena: i can imagine u typing that and thinking you're damn funny! quite lah..my face twitched. updead me leh.
xlb: yes def before i return to office on mon!
jas: haha thx..im still amazed i survived! see u soon man..
pitter: why never attend my pop huh?

2006-05-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

dear me, time really does fly. in abt a week's time i'll be pop-ing! its gonna be sad day, i've grown to love my platoon mates and the funny shits that happen everyday. yeah, i'd have never expected to feel this way ever, thought i wld have died before that day. speaking of which, its on the sixth june. 06/06/06. how very auspicious.

so thats the firetrench which we almost died digging. but the satisfaction upon completion's really quite an amazing feeling. im the joker on the right standing up, just in case u've forgotten how i look like. stunned this pic off my platoon commander's blog haha! he's the handsome mat sitting in the middle of it.

damn i miss my friends. my social life ): where have you idiots all disappeared to. msg me or sth leh. not used to getting only ten msges a day haha! oh that reminds me. was on the ferry booking out last night and this guy was in front of me msging. and i was curious so i looked at his msges. went sth like..eh why so long then you reply? bad! i dont like! and all the nonsense words that two ppl who're in the pre-courtship/initial stages of love use. then as expected, he replied in that kinda tone back. very solli la, outfield ma. alot of hmms, and hints abt him fancy-ing her. then i rolled eyeball and laughed. ok so im a bitter, broken, jealous and bloody kaypo person heh. but what to do, tv on the ferry had poor reception of malcolm in the middle.

and so, its time for my nap before booking back in. its a brutally banal cycle. sigh.

2006-05-12T10:03:00.000+08:00

im halfway thru bmt and amazingly, im still alive. hallelujah! just came back frm field camp which was horrid. jungles are bad things. mosquitos so powerful they can pierce thru ur uniform and suck ur blood. having to dig ur shit hole with ur tools and cover back with soil when u're done. spooky stuff happens too. people started hearing some malay calls to prayer and chanting and stuff in the middle of jungle training. not one or two folks but tens of em. odd thing's that tekong's locals were evicted long ago and no one stays on the island anymore. so training was stopped abruptly and we were asked to return back to campsite, much to my delight heh. i do hope more ghosts/weird spiritual occurences happen hahaha. we're even warned by the commanders to apologise everytime we pee outfield, and they're damn serious abt it. but ive never said before. as much as i think its all bullshit, even SAF takes precautions and hires those priests guys to hold rituals and stuff. eerily interesting.

updates. with my impeccable academic record and achievements, i've been accepted into the prestigious, world renowned nus faculty of arts and social sciences. woot. ok la shut up and stop laughing behind ur stupid monitor. I CAN SEE YOU. and also ntu's sociology. unless some north korean nuke misfires and blasts half of s'pore and all of nus down, im gonna choose the former. holy cat i cant wait!

dont know why everyone's complaining abt measly ns men's pay. its decent to me, very fine indeed. its the most i've earned in my life! going for some fine dining with my buddy some time soon, we've been fantasising abt eating delicious high class food everynite for the longest time.

ok lunch. see you alll folks, i miss my friends badly. all of you.

adel: yeah damn black again. grr. hows you? hope u've found a better treadmill buddy!
L: you horrible superstar didnt come out that night.
peter pan: i woke up with blood on my bed. why ah. hehh..
khai: it blows more than it sucks what. hearing my song always cheers me up!
jon: im suffering daily. rmb me when u're having fun ): u're still much loved (:
my friend: hello! dont compare ur life with mine ok. u get to take bus/train. i have to run/march. u get to take escalator, i climb 5 floors everyday. get the idea! but hope u're having fun too (:

2006-04-14T14:15:00.000+08:00

somehow first week of army reminded me of npcc days. wldnt have expected myself to be saying this, but its been fun! but its a bummer that i ended up in the notoriously siong mohawk company, worst or second worst company to be in. doesnt help that everyone's either silver or gold for napfa in the company. fit bastards. most folks are frm cj and ac though. many handsome boys too haha. poor khai got screwed by the sergeant though, not being tactful enough. its gonna go downhill frm here though. ok enough abt ns.

its good friday! was wondering again why it always rains every yr on gd friday, or dark clouds at least, for as many gd fridays as i can rmb. the whole cruxifixion of Christ some 2k years ago's been recorded in the bible and stuff, and its described that it was a dark day when Jesus bore all the sins of the world on his shoulders, and God turned His face away frm him. too much sin for God to be able to look at Jesus. became darkest abt 3pm when Jesus died. 'the sun stopped shining and the curtain in the temple split down the middle.' and for whatever reason, supernaturally or coincidentally its always been dark on good fridays. for the longest time, the skeptic in me's been trying to convince myself that its just coincidental, hoping that the next gd fri wld be bright and sunny for the whole day. then year aft yr it always is dark. or bright and sunny at first, then start to become dark around afternoon. i'd come up with all kinds of reasons..like explain that it's cos it's monsoon season in april thats why sure rain or dark clouds every yr! but deep down i guess i do know exactly why. believe in whatever reason u might think it is though. but good friday means so much more than this and im really thankful for that great sacrifice.
keep a lookout next year, im sure this phenomenon repeats itself again.

ha just some food for thought. gonna zzz now. got a ferry to catch later! happy easter holidays.

2006-04-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

before i leave, thanks so much, alot, to all of you who've called, messaged, met up, gave presents/farewell gifts. i am really overwhelmed and touched. does make it that much better. but its not like im dying, i'll be bach! i hate goodbyes, so, hello!

2006-04-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

updates. updates are impt, just as breakfast is. though i dont eat breakfast. hongkong was amazing.

day 1
flight was at 7am, stayed over at changi the night before. reached hk ten plus, delighted at 18 degree weather. tho yongteng and brendan were complaining of cold. checked in hotel and wandered around using a powerful map. first taste of hk cuisine at local diner we stumbled upon, char gai fan (charsiew chicken rice). omg one of the best chinese shit i've tasted ever. huge portion too. went to some mega shopping mall later, caught brokeback there. tragic love story. men sex was animal-like though, not for the faint hearted.

day 2
disneymania! went on almost every ride and attraction cos its so small. small but cosy. took pics with the legendary fluffy animals, princesses and whatnots. koped free souvenirs frm the banquet room decor-ed food place. lots of toothpicks and tissue with disney logo on em. priceless. there's this marvelous theatre show thingy where all the disney cartoons are merged into a ten min show feat scenes frm old/new disney movies. neat effects too-get splashed by water by the broomsticks and smell some freshly baked pie that the candleguy whips out at beauty and the beast's 'be our guest' segment. absolutely wonderful day!

day 3
free day. shopped upsidedown. took the mtr (mrt) to death getting to all the shopping areas, nightmarkets, factory outlets and stuff. amazed again at how much brighter hk is at night than it is during the day. shoppings great cos hk sells everything. frm gd quality imitations to local brands to the branded brands. convinced finally that hk's the ultimate shopping paradise, not s'pore. even saw imitation 'creative' earplugs. ridiculous!

days 4/5
memory gets hazy frm here. crossed border into shenzhen and stayed a night there. culture shock initially, the transition frm modern city to...china. didnt feel good at all after seeing a woman eating discarded food in the filthy dustbin with one hand, the other holding her young kid. kid was eating biscuit. heartbreaking. wanted to give money but it wldnt have been wise really. shopped some more at night, the city was much better, modern like hk. met greg zhou at starbucks. imagine the likelihood of that..glad he's still shorter than me haha. shop shop shop more untiil broke. went home. the last night, saw two jap rugby sevens guys at 7 eleven outside our motel. turned out their team was staying at our motel too haha. they bought lots of booze, prob some porn mags and in-house blue movies too. typical horny japs. we were commenting that they'd have some wild orgy and miss training the next morn. paid for my milk and went home.

honkie girls are damn cute. the guys are fags, but good looking. honks are beautiful! everywhere we looked got cute girls, especially the meimeis. the guys very pretty too, but they sure acted how they looked. the youth dress like japs, all so hip, totally unexpected. about 75 percent of them wear chucks. all same fashion/dress sense. dont believe nxt time go see for urself. finally cld use my powerful cantonese to good effect ordering food, asking for directions, bargaining, trying to understand the tour guides. one of them spoke solely cantonese. ridiculous. anyway hk's nice, must go.

and so back to reality. time's a ticking! time for me to tickle it back. must spend every sec left wisely. i shall not sleep the next few days.

sji days

2006-03-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

found some old sec sch fotos while was clearing my messy room and brought back fond memories. made me realise i was actually damn cheeky back then. luckily now much better. i rmb back in sec 2 i cldnt stand this stupid stuffed toy my friend always brought to class. one day i took it and threw it into the fan hahaha. the thing got sliced and flew across the class, almost tio-ing some guy. and my friend complained to the teacher fella and that idiot sent me to the sji chapel after school to 'reflect', aft blasting me upsidedown. for over 3 freaking hrs i was made to reflect. most ridiculous punishment ever.

and then those times in npcc haha. us guys went nuts whenever the girls frm other schools came over for competitions/campfires or some lame shit. there was only one pretty lass out of the numerous girls. the rest had armpit hair sticking out. there was this stupid rule that flirting was prohibited, severe punishment. i was sec2 then, shy as a fly. was not until over a yr after we knew each other that we finally talked. before that it was just exchanging silly smiles. come on lah, i was still a kid then. so thru some miracle we were in the same grp for some camp on ubin. but lo and behold, her english cldnt make it. tried my hardest not to laugh, but was impossible with horribly mean squadmates in the background guffawing away. damn disappointing, that was the end of the crush.

contrary to (my) popular belief that i got nicer as i grew older, realised again that wasnt always the case. sad. there was this scrawny, helpless little guy who sat in front of me in sec3 and 4. everyone picked on him. harmless teasing/jacking, but damn funny. i used to squirt water from my bottle onto his chair and let it flow down. then i wld call him and he'd have to turn back. and as soon as he realises that his ass is wet, everyone arnd wld burst out laughing. omg damn mean. but hilarious. that guy was soonkiat @ thomasangchoonkiat. alls forgiven now though and we're good friends (: sat beside me for the two years in cj.

another thing that always happened was this guy called emil, cj science fac, always tried to upskirt the teachers for fun hahaa..the most daring one. he put one of those bicycle mirrors on his shoe then called the teacher over. then he stealthily manoeuvred to get the right angle. again, spontaneous laughter. the whole class knew what he was trying to do, dumb teacher! another friend sitting beside me wld call the teacher over for help, say he was too tired to walk to her. then aft tt he wld blatantly downblouse her haha...and report the colour. he'd come up with a weekly colour scheme and bet which colour it was for that day. we'd dare each other to try it on our old auntie chinese teacher and gross ourselves out hahahaha.. to the naked eye, us sji guys wld have come across as pervs. pun not intended. but be assured we drew no sexual pleasure whatsoever frm voyeuring these middleaged women. hell, cos not.

last day of sch. many cj dudes there. dominic's on extreme left. samuel's behind the teacher. leangwen's the greentied guy on the right, front row. soonkiat's beside him. i was quite fat then haha. my lovely jon's missing. thats the physics teacher who got downbloused many times.

but the funniest shit happened in the toilet. some joker took a potted plant and planted it in the urinal. ppl wld take turns peeing on the plant, and watch it get watered further when the thing flushed. by the end of the day when i went back for a pee, there was lots of hair on the plant. turned up some funny guy trimmed himself there! so there it was in its full glory, a potted plant with hair on the urinal. couldnt have looked more out of place.

many more nice memories, but too obscene to be shared here. the upsidedown song is stuck in my head..

ngiam: better not, later they jealous then beat me up.
peter: im sohrab lah..
jon: stop bragging. i bought an aston martin. yay mail!

2006-03-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

aching frm the tennis yest. somehow i've lost my serving powers. i suspect the new nets they installed are unnaturally higher than before..hmm. then we went for late dinner at chun tin aft surprising the birthday girl ngiam with delicious cake hidden in my fridge! pink suits you haha! ok so i know i ought to be training up and beefing up in preparation for my jail term. but hell, its less than freaking three weeks and i'll be off. banished to that damned islet tekong. time for intensive socialising/outings. speaking of which, i'll be off to the chinese kingdom of hongkong nxt week! dimsum wonderland here i come heh. but, that means only one plus week left ): but but, cant wait to visit the land of SARS!

boy: so clever.
L: dont make me slap you ah..
nanateng: v gd..i like to disturb you. disturbed girl. where do i tag you..
jon: ARE YOU SERIOUS? thats disappointing. dont tell me its him she lost it to..even more disappointing! how'd you know? its always the same here lah, boringville. stupid general elections are hogging too many headlines. that day some woman found dead semi nude also made front page news. think was a straits times employee who pushed her off just so they could have sth to write about. this is absurd..mail me you bitch. miss you and fats alot.

2006-03-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

wee. had a ridiculous weekend. drove my friend's dad's merc! so it was abt 2 plus and we got hungry. said my last prayers before taking to the wheel. took awhile to familiarise with the car..realised that i didnt turn on headlights after struggling with visibility hah! was on constant lookout for cops. got freaked when we saw this blinding light in the distance, thought roadblock. turned out to be deranged driver turning into wrong lane, towards us, at junction. many crazy things later, decided enough was enough. petrol level was seriously dwindling. too much fun in one night!

tried to post a picture of my shop earlier but ended up deleting alot of things unintentionally. thats my fast food restaurant along ventnor ave.

and thats the nightclub, fashion boutique and antiques store along the boardwalk.

spending my time as wisely as possible. attending auctions, inheriting inheritances, selling off property. soon i'll be the monopoliser and rich uncle pennybags! argh i feel so tempted to take my dad's car out for a spin haha..

OASIS!

2006-02-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

holy mama cat! against all odds i finally got to watch oasis perform! walking up the quite impressive stairs of the indoor stadium was alr an experience. huge crowd waiting to get in. my spine tingled..atmosphere was fantastic. got the 68 bucks tics, balcony. of cos i wasnt gonna settle for tt, planned to crash the standing area. tt proved impossible, so we went down and settled for the 98 bucks area instead. poor folks pissed at the numerous ppl who invaded their lower balcony to get closer to the stage. old fogeys we were standing arnd who prob got their corporate sponsored tics decided to leave aft half an hr or so, obviously rock's not for them. we gladly took their seats! vvv pleased with our final spot!

me/reina/may/marcus at entrance.

the gallaghers. damn good stuff.

classic liam pose..

wonderwall. stadium went delirious.

that started the mass karaoke session. then came champagne supernova. peak. climax. nuts. left 'dont look back in anger' for their encore. voice almost drowned out by crowd. adrenaline rush again, endorphins surging thru body. fantastique! how many special people change... hmm. 4! changed to better seats haha! iiiii aaaammmm ssssooo hhiiiggggghh!

2006-02-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

in quite a mess. so my friend's mum told my mum that i like this girl, who happens to be my friend's gf. which is completely bollocks. and tt must be why my mum's been a real pain in the s these past few weeks. its a new low, we barely communicate. if we do, its her shouting and accusing, and me protesting in vain. deafening exchanges. but then again i've been coming back after midnite almost every night. but then then again, my day only starts after noon! not like im spending more time outside..bah. not gd to have fierce mother.

had great fun on sat celebrating that friend's bday though. funorama-ed, lamed arnd. shopped at cold storage for stuff to cook for all of us and bday boy. made us some steak and huge garlic buttered prawns which was orgasmic. went down poolside to cut cake after the match which liverpool thrashed man united with such ease. then got mercilessly shoved into pool by the 5 of em, still in my jeans. horrible how friends whom u've known ur whole life can be so happy to do such scandalous acts with such glee. the maniacal glint in their eyes.. went home with wet panties.

happy days like this does take ur mind off sad things does it..momentarily at least. SIGH. scream, everyone. we're all nuts.

2006-02-18T03:12:00.000+08:00

don't we have too little of friends that we can truly be at ease with. friends that noe our weaknesses and flaws that even farting in their presence draws nth more than a mere harmless mock curse and perhaps a kick in the ass. those that we can sleepover with and wake up in the morning with bad breath but still carry on small talk till u've finally decided to get out of bed. a listening ear for all ur messy relationship problems and heartaches when u need one, but similarly have a hearty laugh and jack you abt at tragic plight/loserness with no intention of hurting you. ppl that u envision being/reserve that post of being the bestman/woman at ur wedding. friends that are willing to rebuke you when u've erred, even if it risks the souring of the friendship. friends which will never ever consider the possibility of having the slightest of chances for a buddy's other half, even if he noes she's the girl of his dreams.

but i guess its cos they're in such limited quantities that makes them all the more special. the specialness not being needed to be distributed amongst more people. ahh well im losing the plot.

2006-02-14T10:37:00.000+08:00

this comes a little late..but u2's won 5 grammys! yeeaaah! wld have flipped if 'sometimes..on ur own' lost the grammy to the other thrashy nominees in the same category. gonna watch confessions of 300 unmarried men tonight. how apt for a day like today! might invade the stage and add my two cents worth haha.. alrighto, happy talentime's day everyone.

wing: see..he doesnt love u enough to book out today. damn lousy..

2006-02-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

shopped today. wanna get a few cds.
1. nirvana's sliver
2. foo fighters
3. jack johnson
4. sting's greatest hits
5. delirious!'s newest one

well, at least i buy more than steal em off limewire. but..must not be so profligate with money. realised sentosa banked in 64 bucks for my services. that means i've earned less than 200 these past few mths! pathetic. which chinese genius invented the angbao? how cld i ever thank you enough..

so, attended a popiah party today. felt like a quaint british taitai actually, u know..those silly afternoon tea parties and stuff. guess my childhood fascination at watching the popiah ahpek/ah ma in action finally paid off today! mine were neat and decent, the girls' ones looked more like burritos hah! ah liverpool match at 3.30, grammy's at 9am. time to sleep!

2006-02-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

these are sad times. all the dear church friends are going away. annamae's going back to melbourne, lydia's leaving with family to nth thailand for good to be missionaries. army guys are going army. so everyone's going seperate ways. this is shit. worse still, fats going back perth and my dear jon to melb too. great, my best friends are gone, again. and sometimes you just get bitter at Him for taking away so many things that you once took for granted? how on earth can this be good for me..

'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.' Isaiah 55:8-9

so this verse keeps popping into my head these past weeks. helps keep my sanity in check really. guess i'll never comprehend what gd can come out of all this crap till the day i see Him face to face. cant wait. cant wait for chelsea-liverpool match too.

2006-02-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

anyone listened to 'back to the old sch' on clas95 today. so sweeet lah. this stupid girl responded to the penpal thing on teen magazine when she was 16. the guy was 19 yr old army guy. bet he was damn despo army boy kind lah..wth go to the extent of listing urself as a penpal!? so, they got tgt but the guy then left for aust aft ns for studies. the usual heartbroken yadayada..but somehow maintained long dist rltnsp despite lack of physical presence. girl also went aust to study, diff state tho. many years later still pulled thru, getting married nxt mth. the ending words were '(name), you complete me.' c.f jerry mcguire or 'secret garden' by mr springsteen, america's beloved uncle of rock. freaking sweet letter..so touching. maybe its just the putrid air of vday. haha..much to learn frm bridget jones! but even she had two boyfriends hmm..oh well, there's still patricia mok. dont mean to mock her though.

2006-02-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

ahh finally. took one hr to startup stupid com. its been virusified! so it crashes anytime. no time to waste! fantastic week, free money haha! mcron laughing at all the other distant and queer cousins of ours. two idiots guffawing away at other relatives in their own houses haha..we are mean.

listening to some beegees now. still in the mood since retro nite at hardrock! that arnesia band was gd stuff..save for the vocals. oh, our song request earned the band a fullhouse clap. 'with or without you'. im bloody emo freak.

anyhow, worked my ass out today helping khai's dad. we called ourselves the stickerboyz! yeah with the z for effect. effectz. quite fun day, albeit tiring. sentosa job now seems like a dream job. sigh. alright before the com crashes..ttfn. merry week everyone.

adel: eh im honoured by ur presence..ur head!
ichinose: hi there! hope u've been having a nice time all this while :)
joyceh: u go corner and reflect lah! dao kia..but, hello too!

2006-01-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

alright new plan in life. driving! absolutely sure not to work anymore, so can chiong driving. my mum's been mum-ed (silenced...), now that im finally getting down to doing sth haha. another clever pun. got pleasantly surprised when the fella asked me to drive all the way to bt timah and teckwhye just on my second lesson. asked me to u-turn out of the blue, even taught me slope and handbraking on it. finally teachers starting to praise me aft a whole life of non-praise! cool dudes.. shall not waste money on movies/drinks/cds anymore..divert all to driving!

oh. had weird start to my day. woke up abruptly at 5.25am today. first thing tt came to my mind was a U2 song. just then, 'sometimes you cant make it on ur own' came on air. super freaky. and damn nice songs followed, all the way till national anthem came on at 6am. slept again at 6.30 aft an hr of singing on my bed in darkness. anyway that song, bono wrote for his dad when he died. lyrics move to tears really. they shared sorta enstranged relationship, fought, loved, but never outrightly expressed their feelings. all this became more poignant in the light of the sudden passing of my dear friend's dad. well, im sure he's proud to have left behind a great son and friend. this one's for you uncle, rest in peace.

Sometimes You Can't Make It on Your Own
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

(chorus)
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I... that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need... I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

(chorus)

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can you hear me when I sing,
you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone

(chorus)

Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

zzz

2006-01-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

i do not like eskibar. the noise they play is atrocious (techno?!), the clientele's mostly made up of old ahlians and not-hot guys who converse in hok-mandarin, lousy service. the day their freezer unit breaks down will be the day it collapses, of cos only till they fix it. i like eskimos though, been fascinated by them since young. always dreamt of keeping my pet penguin in my freezer, occasionally opening the door to let it bask in the sun. ohwell we dream the silliest things when we're young dont we :)

tv shows today were all abt houses.
mon's mtv's footballer cribs day. nice to be taken into the houses of the game's biggest stars like harry kewell etc. todays was shola ameobi and sibierski. the latter's was a horror-fest. never have i seen such an expensive disaster in my life. million dollar hse filled with tacky, spotlight-looking stuff all arnd the hse. the nicest bit was his floormat. 3pm, mtv.

i like watchiing bai jia le. the home decor show hosted by mark lim and the faggy bryan wong. get into laughing fits watching mark destroy houses with his malaysia-fashion-influenced style. u put an ahbeng to compete with a gayman in interior design, of course the gayman wins every episode right. mon 8pm, ch8. series ending soon though.

pri6 class reunion tmr. the only person i still keep in contact with is theng theng. i believe she'll be the only pretty girl there haha.. most of my friends back then were girls, somehow the guys didnt really friend me. my shyness will prob get the better of me and make me give it a snub.

its absurd how im even busier than normal sch days, not counting the mugging days. i've even resorted to recording down my appointments with ppl to meet. i cant rmb now who it was that i was out with some time back, and that person called me a socialite. how rude. only one thing pops into my mind in association with that word-paris hilton. im being compared to a sexy dumb blonde. great!

someone tell joyce to add a tag to her blog!

jon: nice one..leave without telling me. get me a packet of honkie.
abc: who are you!

2006-01-23T01:56:00.000+08:00

two things i dont understand.
1) why cisse started over morientes is a mystery.
2) why is liverpool always so unlucky against man u

deja vu all over again..liverpool outplays united, only to somehow lose it. my mum's damn funny. says cisse's hair looks like lumps of shit! okay she used 'si' instead of shit, which is just shit in canto. the way he's been playing of late, its no wonder his hairdresser so cleverly yet subtly dissed him. but its okay, pool will get that second spot come season's end! shall celebrate that with my future army buddies on some lousy island which doesnt even have a power plant.

moving on. was at the petshop at holland this aftnn and i saw the beautifullest dog ever..a husky puppy! such a pretty girl she took my breath away. then i realised its the same one i saw a few mths back in the same shop. took a pic of her the last time while she was sleeping. ok this all sounds wrong.. used to go dog-appreciating with my friend, and i always hated it when we had to leave the shop..and im still the one without the dog. grr. eh no, its woof. woof ah..not wolf.

and since a major reason for me wanting to work was to earn enough for a puppy, that's all gone now. figured i cant possibly bear parting with my dog everyweek to go back to camp. my poor heart's got enough to worry abt clogged arteries so shall spare it frm further heartaches. i'll get my dog someday. lifetime goal! ahhh goal..

mr mean

2006-01-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

some annoying prat annoyed me today, talking so damn loudly on the bus to his friends. swearing upside down while talking abt some dumb game. all three of them so noisy. so i stared hard at the noisiest and shushed him v loudly. my sister laughed. didnt see the funny side of it though..the worst thing..they were speaking in chinese! the fact that they were sajc ppl just made it worse.

and that reminded me of a hilarious incident in genting. so the bunch of us queued up and finally reached our turn on the bumper cars. buzzing with excitement. while the rest scurried to select nice cars, i was too lazy to brisk walk to my ferrari so i walked quite slowly. just when i was abt to reach my car, this super irritant of a kid ran in front ahead of me and wanted to kope my car! like how rude! i was damn pissed, but what happened nxt i had no idea, it just came naturally. i said 'oy!' quite audibly, and that jack got such a shock he suddenly swerved away frm my car and ran towards his sister's car. turned like 90 degress left! he eventually took the passenger seat haha! didnt mean to scare him like that, but quite funny lah. they didnt dare to bump my car thruout the few minutes! the funnier thing was that i felt sadistically amused, pleased and entertained by the whole incident.

i HATE kids! how such adorable babies and toddlers metamorphosize into these horrid kids, i find utterly tragic. why cant every baby be like maggie simpson and never grow up..

other than kids, my mum's getting on my nerves too. scolds me in the morn, aftnn and night. always lamenting my carefree and lovely period of life im living now, screaming at me to get a job, drive, or gym. i wanna get it into her head that i've got a job, but then again i'd be suicidal to tell her that, cos she'll figure out somehow that my procrastination to report for work's the reason why im not working. she'd then be likely to call up and make me work fulltime. driving..well i wont be able to complete before i enlist, so im ambivalent. gym-slowly using it more. the treadmill for a start (:

if i stay hme, she'll find sth to shout at me for. thats why im always out. then again, she blasts me for spending too much money. weird thing is that i rarely, almost never ask her for $$, she gives quite kindly. she give, i take right? refusing's rude! that day in car she was complaining to my dad and poisoning his mind abt my over-zealous contributions to the economy, trying to get him to her side, the dark side, and turn him against me. after we reached, the cool man gave me fifty bucks! haaha funny..my mum was exasperated. but that incident struck me later in the day..must not waste so much money. im quite convinced now that it was his way of teaching me to be more responsible with cash. he's used radical ways to teach me valuable lessons before, and i respect him so much for that. hope i'll turn out like him nxt time. very divergent styles of parenting, but i guess they're excellent parents cos i love them so much.

L: shh, not sth to be proud of.
adel: now u just drew more attention to it! mon again ah..u're more hardcore than i am.
ngiam: i noe u noe im no feilou, so its ok! follow my strict regimen of eat, slp, run and jacuzzi.

wee!

2006-01-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

ahh. had one of the best days of slacking today. everyday just beats the previous day haha.

daytime
met my dear ngiam for lunch at crazy 1.15pm. originally planned for nice time at corduray and finch but alas..we reached too late. they slack frm two onwards, we reached at 1.50. only superman or soonkiat can eat in 10 mins. ended up the the venezia further down the stretch. had yummylicious waffles with durian supreme and dark choc gelatos on em. sweeet. chatted awhile, bade farewell. she had to rush back to sch to shit. funny girl.

went home to take my daily nap. cldnt go pool read book..stupid rain. called sentosa to be a responsible employee and report for duty. stupid office engaged. its a sign..slacking's my calling.

evening
met adel for dinner. finally agreed on today to go gym. how exciting. walked hme frm westmall to save busfare. been walking hme daily ever since fares got jacked up so high. 64 cents for two bus stops is blatant daylight robbery. gymed! did some exercise for the arms. heaviest thing they've lifted in recent times was my icecream tub. and luggage too. ran a lung-busting 2.5k, which def was more than that according to adel. she ran 2.2 only..lousy! aft that, ran into (clever eh?) my favourite security guard. the one that thanked me for informing them abt the unfortunate tennis court incident where i broke some stuff. he saw the cj pe shirt and exclaimed 'hey, thats my alma mater!' so he reminisced..parted with the words '...lovers college'. last time maybe..now more like lusty college. cool indian guard..v cheeky too. and so we jacuzzi-ed ourselves silly after our exersions. it dawned on me how relaxing my pool is, and i've used it less than 10 times all these years. i read my book in jacuzzi yest. felt like an ancient roman.

aft sending her home..my dad's a nice man really..i succumbed and bought 3 otahs. and my dad just had to stop at shell on the way back. so no choice, cldnt resist again and went in to get some strawberry ice-cream. that made the fourth ice-cream i've had today. but its ok..have to take care of my body. and ice-skating beckons in ten hours. there's just too little time in a day eh.

sorry folks..didnt visit the blog in a few days.
gabs: it was hard. one hell of a hard cake actually..
rhea: i tried to work. nobody ans my call at office! slack one more week first heh..and damn cool lah tracting actually works. why sunny never tell us! really quite encouraging.
ichinos: i've got u to thank really. thx for the talks on skepticism (: now its ur turn huh. u're just too busy for me to call it seems. im secretly hoping u get sacked haha! why so busy ):
dhan: eh bro..i've worked my ass off for the past 12 years. i wld like to think i deserve some time to replenish my batteries! but if an interesting colleague gets the job u bet i'll be working full time!
gabs again: im scared to work. later wanna go holiday again v troublesome. but no, not working for the time being! my sentosa uniform's getting a lil mouldy..
jon: huh where got holy? im how unholy lah. but im trying hard haha. eh you ah..looks like i need to take my cane out. and put the bird back in the cage!

evangelism?

2006-01-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

i did tracting last week. the youths went arnd blocks giving out tracts and tried to share the gospel with those who wld listen. never did expect to be daring enough to do it, but did so nonetheless. it always seemed to me that i'd rather ppl not approach me to share the gospel with me, if i werent a christian that is. its just so..intrusive, intimidating, annoying.. u get the drift. i've had my fair share of over-zealous street evangelists shoving tracts into my face and proclaiming v rudely and tactlessly that Jesus is the only way. thats just wrong. disrespectful.

so it was really heartening to experience 'successful' attempts at sharing my faith with strangers. one indian chap made my day when he came to the door to acknowledge us, and thanked us so sincerely for trying to talk to him. dont know why he was so grateful, thanking us a few times, but that feeling's inexplicable. totally made up for the many times we had doors slammed in our faces haha..expected that though.

but the most amazing thing was that the other grps were able to share the gospel with even the muslims. ok so thats not really legal here, might get into much trouble for all this religious thingy..and of cos we were warned against offending the malays especially. so u wld expect that since its the hari raya period and all that, these admirably pious ppl wld be naturally be more guarded and passionate abt Allah and the muslim religion itself right? half right i guess. but God works in stunning ways. quite a few muslim families actually allowed them to share. and they were respectful. unlike the typical chinese family which wld brush us off rudely, not open their doors, or open and slam. damn fun right..later slam until door drop out!

so there were other sad stories like getting to talk to teens curious to find out more, only for their parents to come out and refuse to let us continue sharing. there's so much more to be done! we're just planting the seeds. He does the rest. so dont feel discouraged if u've tried and it all seems useless. u might have changed someone's live out there many years later without u knowing (:

now i ponder..should i report back for work or enjoy my holidays like how i am doing so everyday. this shld be a no-brainer..but somehow sth tells me to work. tough decisions to be made everyday huh.

/H2>

2006-01-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

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for some strange reason unknown, peter has requested to put that odd line above. enjoy the pleasure u derive frm looking at that dude..

am back! kl has shocked yet again. i always lower or go to msia with no expectations of a pre-determined degree of fun to experience there. im ecstatic its turned out as fun as it has! the best thing..damn cheap trip which makes more room for spending! the folks who went: adel, gaybriel, capital L, jasmine and joy. very diverse bunch, even more fun and occasionally cranky. didnt put makeup on this trip, wore old clothes, to ward off robbers/rapists. i'll look disturbing in the pics haha!

expenses.
coach to kl: S$27
kl to genting: rm 6.50 + 5 for taxi up to the top of mountain
genting to spore: rm 40
lodging at kl: rm 100 plus
lodging at genting: FREE!!
money lost/dropped/disintegrated: rm 100 plus. damn..

so it turned out that our wonderful host/indigenous individual/peter, knows msia's minister of tourism. hell, we had dinner with him! almost choked on my food when he intd himself. the lovely man gave us complimentart rooms up on the mountain at the finest hotel there. treated like vips. free passes to genting theme park followed! good things always happen to me :D and so, msia continues to attract more tourists than my motherland because of things like this. good service starts from the top, though this is sometimes unfairly labelled as blatant corruption. here, even the cashiers think they're CEOs. worse still, there's national service! now thats real bad service.. and, we dont even have a minister for tourism hah!

kl was lovely, the malls especially. nothing like those in johor..big, new, but full of crap shops. like westmall-shops-kind of shops. shopping was such a joy! joy was nuts..like a kid in a cd store. she alone wasted so many plastic bags to bag her purchases! genting was lovelier. with weather at pleasant 16-22 range, even if the only form of entertainment/activity was exercising, it would be so much fun. genting was fun beyond words. clouds everywhere. even indoors! quite ridiculous really..

peter was a cheeky boy. late nite tomyam supper too spicy for him so he forced me to refill the mineral water bottle with tap water after finishing it, then put back in fridge so we wont be charged by hotel for it. sheer brilliance. peter also used comlimentary fruits as flying projectiles aimed at me. im glad there was no durian. peter slept on couch for two nights while we took the bed, though we begged him to bed with us. poor thing. peter made scary monkey faces at baby on pram while its mother was busy paying for tickets at indoor theme park. he farts too much into people and sleeps too much too. but, he's a really great host. eh u really made this trip so fun and affordable. thanks ah for everything!

malaysia, the cake capital of the world! to gab, for all the nonsensical statements that left us in painful uncontrollable laughing fits for minutes on end. and for the lullabys each night. stay gay my friend.

ichinos: huh. i said bye when u left. u didnt when i did. again! oh, i did wrap the thing actually. but my mum tot it was one of my presents so she helped me open and put it on my table. i almost died.
trot: surprise! we didnt get mugged! thx to me. read the local papers there this morn and guess what..kl has the highest crime rate ratio in msia.
rhea: hao! thx for ur socks! just opened my presents only now haha!
abc: abc beer? george lam has an upcoming concert in genting. seriously. stupid annoying man.

2006-01-07T20:04:00.000+08:00

i woke up today thinking today was kl day. then i realised aft awhile that its tmr night. grr. spent the aftnn reading at o brien's with mich and lydia. feels real gd to relax like this everyday! find myself wanting to work less and less.. and so after we left, decided to soak up the sun by the poolside back home. nice beachchair..gd sun..unputdownable book. the smell of bbq'd food wafting in the air. would have been complete with one of those cocktails with the umbrella on it haha! then abruptly turned dark, bloody downpour came. accidently dropped my shirt into pool while scrambling to pack up. bah.. good things never last..